I'm approaching 10 months of Hrt, and one of my biggest things that keeps coming to mind is my breasts. I have a lot of worry around them, and while my breasts are probably perfectly normal, and it's just the awkward stage of breast development, It's still something I get worried over sometimes.
The first thing I wonder about is the breast buds, like shouldn't they have disappeared by now, are they kind of big, etc. Right now, they have a semi-oval shape to them, measuring from side to side on the right breast it's diameter is about 7.25cm (2.8 inches) and from top to bottom it's 6.5cm(2.5inches). For the left side it's about 6.5cm from side to side (2.5inches) and from top to bottom about 5.75cm(2.3inches) in diameter. I've read that breast buds are usually about almond size to quarter size, and my buds are quite a lot bigger than that. They do extend beyond the areola. They are also still quite firm too but they do sometimes get slightly softer.
The second thing that I also get concerned about is, and a lot of this is probably based on the tanner scale which isn't the most accurate way to tell development, is the general shape of the breast. From the front, virtually everyone I've shown can't see a difference in my breast shape or size. To me I can see a huge difference. My right side has developed faster so it is more developed which I know that's normal. The thing I get concerned about is the bottom of the breasts, or the left one to be more exact. With the right breast, you can see this nice curve on the underside, the left side you can't really see a curve, at least in my opinion. There is a curve there it's just very very slight. It's harder to see because my areolas at around 6 months became Puffy/swollen, so that somewhat changes the shape of the breast. When my nipples get cold, they do scrunch up and the puffyness goes away and I'm left with a nice shaped breast which tells me that I'm developing in a normal way I think, but it's that filling out on the bottom I get concerned about. I am in a stage where like my breasts have that conical shape to them still when you look at them from above, but they are slowly filling out and getting a nice curve to them. That was one thing I also noticed is that when my nipples get cold, the breasts seem to take on a lot more of a curved shape.
Based on what I'm describing it sound like it's just pretty normal breast development, just an awkward stage as I like to call it. And A lot of my fears do come from the idea of constricted and tubular breasts, which it doesn't sound like it is, but it never hurts to be sure. I know a lot of people I've asked that are ciswomen, and seen them such as my mother, have said they look perfectly normal and welcome to the awkward stage of development, and I've had a few transwomen say the same thing. Maybe I'm just being impatient but I'm really trying to kick this worry out the door. I will see the doctor in 2 months for my 1 year of transition check up and she will do a breast exam. I also probably shouldn't worry when I have Progesterone since that is supposed to help with development and maturation and prevent things such as tubular and constricted breasts.
