Dysphoria is likely the exact word to describe what you are describing, Scoot..
When our bodies lack sex hormones, we lose energy and our cells lose steam. Hormones impact almost everything in our bodies directly or indirectly, and a lack of either or both has negative health consequences globally, not just on the cellular level..
While I lost a ton of muscle and strength, I have more than made up for both with renewed attitude, joy of life, and a clear path to happiness in the future..
A gender therapist and an experienced trans-savvy endocrinologist form the basis of a well-informed, well-balanced journey forward. A sympathetic general practice doctor is the foundation of good overall health, but the other two specialists are the ones that will take you where ever you really need to go..
Good luck, girlfriend, you are on your way...
Missy