Gay realization pre-transition? !

[needhelp]

Hey there !

Many of you might have read a few of my previous posts... Anyways, I'm in this pool of confusion once again. Now besides being at the verge of transition, I'm super confused about my sexuality as well.
I have a girlfriend at the moment but suddenly I'm falling out of love big time... and over the past few years it happens more and more that I always find a "defect" in the female body... however, male body, I do not (not sure if this is because I don't see it as a possible partner or actually because I like it)...
So I was wondering if for any who transitioned late in life and also happened to change sexual orientation... what was it like? Was it denial?... I realize that I don't laugh around my girlfriend nor previous ones, but I do around men... this I'm not sure if it's due to me being a tiny bit shy and still represent it around women or just that deep down something inside me knows I want to be with men and that's why I don't laugh with women...
Hard to explain all this, but it sucks... Now I think of my girlfriend and get nauseous...

I'd love some feedback !

Thanks !

[Elis]

I don't think my sexual orientation changed; rather before I thought the only option was to be a female with a guy which did not appeal to me at all. Being a guy with a guy however somewhat does. But looking back I got crushes on men. I think a lot of trans men also have this same experience.

That's not to say your gf can't be your only exception when it comes to women. Maybe there's different sex stuff you can try.

[Nina_Ottawa]

Funny, before transition, I never, ever thought about men in any way, shape or form. I had had girlfriend/wife from age 19-42.
When I started hormones  living full time, for some reason I became attracted to men. Can't explain it. I joined a couple vanilla dating sites, dated a bit, and eventually met a super nice guy. We've been together over three years now - happily married.
If one thing I have noticed, men notice me. They smile a lot, and I don't know why. Maybe because I smile back....I dunno...but it reinforces who I am.

[ds1987]

I'd identified as a gay man for several years (still do publicly, not out as trans yet).  I've always been attracted to men, from the time I hit puberty.  I never felt nor feel anything physical for women, nor was I interested in a romantic relationship with one.  As I've begun to transition, pre-medically that is, I still want to be with a man, but as a woman.  I haven't been very interested in dating a man for quite some time, and now I'm phasing into womanhood, I would love to date one, but being their girlfriend rather than boyfriend.  It's somewhat foreign to say that I'm not a gay man, but a straight woman, yet this is how I feel.  I've actually always identified more with female culture/characteristics, and never felt very connected to gay culture or other gay men as friends.

Who knows, though, this could change.  Nothing needs to be set in stone 

[Janes Groove]

I was actually flirting with a man last week. He was about my age and he kept calling me "sweetie."
Gotta say. It was fun!