Hey there, I'm Mirath. A username I go by on many forums, so depending on the forum it may sound familiar (I one day want it as my legal middle name)
I would consider myself FTM, both pre-T and pre-op, living in the rural countryside of Hereford.
It's only just now that I've asked to see my GP to be able to start the process of referral, a process that I had started over a year ago, but didn't get much further than being referred by a psychiatrist due to both the distance to a GIC and full-time work, and also under the impression that I had to keep my parents happy and try and get over the 'phase'.
Granted, it's been over a year so it can't be just a phase... right?
I have Aspergers, so I may struggle to word things sometimes, and may read things wrong. I also live with my parents, who believe that my feeling this way is due to my Aspergers, and is partly what led to me backing out of being referred for over s year to try and see for myself if they were right.
I first found that I was different around 17/18 (when I was in college) and found I preferred to be referred to as male, but didn't find out about the word transgender until I was 19, and so couldn't look into it further until that time due to lack of knowing.
I'm now 22 and in full-time employment, my team leaders and one of my closest colleagues know, but other than that I'm very much in the closet, heh. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't nervous about the whole thing, especially coming out at work, but I believe the majority of my team will be okay with it, since I don't look like your 'typical female' anyway.
Currently I bind my chest using the Underworks MagiCotton Sports Bra, which eases the feelings of dysphoria, but since I still own a lot of female clothes, any shirt still gapes in that area. An incredibly comfortable thing, and the cotton content helps my skin to breathe more.
I'm also a bit nervous about going on hormones, as I'd like to but also having eczema (currently under a dermatologist for it), I'm not sure how my skin would react to it. And I'm not the best with needles, so I don't think I could handle the injectable kinds of T.
With lower surgery, I'm still unsure as I've had a kidney stone (unpassable) and know my future risk for them has increased, so I'm not sure how a lengthened urethra would handle going through that. Complications and all that, I'd rather put my physical health first before getting a grip on my mental health (as hard as that can be at times).
Anyway, sorry for the long intro, I look forward to looking around and talking with you all.
