Feeling Stuck

[strangemagic]

I'm very new to this. Around November is when I realized I might be transgender, but I'm still having doubts and continue to invalidate myself. I still identify as a female, but lately it's been starting to bother me more so than it used to and I get uncomfortable whenever people refer to me as one. I've thought about using male pronouns and using a different name online just to see how it feels, but I'm too scared to try. I want to move forward so bad, but I keep feeling like this might just be a phase, so I'm too scared to do anything in fear that I'll end up regretting it. I've been seeing a gender therapist and he's been telling me that it isn't a phase and that what I'm feeling is real, but  the doubt is still there. I don't know what to do. I feel stuck. I want to move forward with my transition but at the same time, I'm too scared and just want to give up.

Did anyone else feel this way? If so, how did you deal with it?

[Dena]

Many people on the site have gone through what you are going through. Purging is a common occurrence where they will start with the transition, purge because they feel uncomfortable with the thought of transitioning and then at a latter date, they will start down the transition path again.

You shouldn't transition unless you are ready but we can help you explore transitioning as an option. Also the transition need not be all or nothing. You may be able to present male and determine if you are more comfortable than you currently are.

You just need to keep asking questions and we will do our best to help you determine what is right for you.