Thank you everyone
Quote from: Floof on February 15, 2017, 08:16:36 AM
Well, it is a choice in the sense that you could certainly continue to suffer through life, or simply take your life as an alternative.. I can't speak for everyone of course but for my part I was at a point where I would what to start transitioning, or give up on my existence and just end it. Turns out I didn't want to die, I want to live a full and happy life and have chosen the only available path to it, as far as I could see.
Thanks Floof
I think I know what I want, but it's going to take time and a bit more support before I can be certain. I think slowing down, questioning is an important step, at least for me. Choices are never finite anyway, they are just markers, direction changes that lead to other, hopefully more rewarding choices.
I'm still a noob to all this, it's like getting to know me for the first time. The things I like, the way I carry myself, why all of a sudden i've developed an insatiable desire to collect handbags?
Quote from: Deborah on February 15, 2017, 08:56:58 AM
Is your goal to be happy or is it to fully transition.
Yes, happy with a full transition.
Quote from: Sophia Sage on February 15, 2017, 10:04:08 AM
We don't have a choice in how we feel -- what we do about that is where we have choices.
Thanks Sophia, it seems so simple when written like that.
Quote from: JeanetteLW on February 15, 2017, 09:24:23 AM
my decision to take those first pills and have continued to take the next without fail. My heart tells me it is right. I believe it is worth it. Hopefully the rest will follow.
I have very much the same sense of 'duty of care' for myself. Taking care of business until proper help arrives.
Not with hormones for me yet, but definitely in preparing the ground and trying to chase off those those pesky, mischievous squirrels.
There seems to be a sense of calm, something solid behind the whaaaaa!!!! that is grounded, a default truth, a resonance if you like, that's always been there. It feels like womanhood, nurturing, attentive and preparing a home for my arrival.
Quote from: Kylo on February 15, 2017, 10:32:19 AM
It ceases to feel like much of a choice when you've exhausted all of your other options in life that you hoped would make it all bearable.
Powerful words Kylo. There has been a lot of hopes, wishful thinking, denial. It all builds up over time and you run out of space. Which is kind of where i'm at.
Quote from: DawnOday on February 15, 2017, 02:32:39 PM
Shy, I hear you. I had the same persistent thought for 64 years and the anger just got worse and worse until I almost had a breakdown. I have been on HRT for 6 months now and there is a serenity and comfort I have not ever felt before. Honestly I wish I would have told my therapists 30 years ago but I'm afraid I would not have received much help.
Yeh, I did come out to a therapist 30 years ago when my marriage broke down. I was told 'but you've been married', 'your a normal heterosexual guy'. He didn't even know, and i'm not sure they did then, that gender and sexuality aren't connected. Either way the 'but I hate my chest, hate my privates' was just swept aside and never questioned.
Glad to here HRT is bringing you peace. I'm kind of in those awkward, early, waiting for appointments stage just now.
All pre checks have been done. Psyche evaluation cleared, so i'm good to go.