Emotions

[JeanetteLW]

   This past week while enduring a bad day where nothing seemed to be going right for me at the same time as I was being apprehensive over a meeting with a psychiatrist for intake assessment prior to getting a referral to gender therapy. I almost had my first classically stereotypical female moment where a woman becomes overwhelmed and breaks out in tears.
   I was right there and it would not have taken much to push me over that edge. I think, had I been with someone like some of the girls here, lamenting my problems I would have done just that. Sometimes I really think I could use that girlfriend I could talk to. Thank you for being here to hold my hand.
    I was surprised, but the emotions were there. I have never felt this way as a male. In a way it was confirmation that I am changing in more ways that just these bumps growing on my chest.

   Hugs,
    Jeanette

[Denise]

You didn't mention whether you liked the sensation of these emotions.

[JeanetteLW]

You didn't mention whether you liked the sensation of these emotions.

   I don't think it is a matter of like or dislike. It just is. In the case of almost crying over my problems it was a shocking surprise, a realization that I am changing, a confirmation that I am becoming more female in ways I did not expect. So in that respect I look on these emotional changes as a good thing. That is the goal of my transitioning isn't it?

   Hugs,
    Jeanette