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[Natal]

Hi All and Nice to Meet You! I have alot of names so its better to call me Natal.I live in Malaysia which is located in South-east Asia.I actually set my mind that i want to be a girl but sadly i dont have enough money and i am scared of telling my parents.(They would kill me or eat me or bite me alive or get a heart attack.).I had weird dreams too...very weird for example when i was about 7 to 9 years old i had a dream i was a teenage girl and it was.....weird.(But i liked it...)

I used to cross dress when i was 9 to 12 but then stop because my mum almost found out.I play alot of online games and use girl characters and act like them.(Which cause me to stop because everytime they would ask for my e-mail.)

I hide my emotions,my worries and my secrets very well....If i keep them any longer i would blow or suicide.I always envy alot of girls and their singing.......(Cant sing high tunes....)

It took me alot of courage to put this in here since i dont let my friends and family my secret.So this days i am trying to find odd jobs and study hard so maybe i can get a high pay job and get money for transition.

I am hoping for an early transition. If i cant get an early one i just have to life my life with a sword impale into my body for the rest of my life.

P.s My grades for English is just a normal B so it might not be so good.

[Suzy]

Greetings, Natal!

Your English is better than some of those on here who speak nothing but English, so please don't worry about that.

Although your location is much different than mine, your feelings sound so much like my own, and that of many on here.  Rest easy.  You are among friends.  Join in and enjoy the fun and be prepared to learn.

I look forward to hearing more from you.  Again, welcome!

Kristi

[Jillieann Rose]

Hello Natal,
I'm glad you had the courage to join Susan's and post a very good introduction.

This is a great place to share your feeling, your hopes and dreams.
To post here will help keep you from blowing up or worse as you have said.
I know it because it has help me not to go crazy or lose all hope.

Yes do study hard and be patient you are still young and have lots of time.

From what I see from your posting you are very good at English.

Welcome to Susan's
Jillieann

[tinkerbell]

Hello Natal and welcome to Susan's!

Thanks very much for your introduction.  Please take a few moments to get familiar with all the boards of the site, review the site rules before posting, and take advantage of our many resources such as the wiki, chat, and the links listed at the main page.  We look forward to your future posts and participation.  Enjoy your stay

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