Quote from: justjoy on March 08, 2017, 06:54:41 PM
Soooo, hi.
Im new to forums and blogs and stuff so please bare with me.
My name is justin, im 32, i dont quite know where i fit.
Now im with someone who knows this part of me and still loves me. Its giving me the confidence and safety to try and figure this out. I dont feel like a woman trapped in a mans body. I dont feel like i need everyone to accept me as a woman. Im not terribly attached to my masculinity, even though i still find myself butching up in the presence of men. I dont think of myself as gay but i think being with a man would feel wonderful if i didnt have a penis and felt attractive.
Ive never been to therapy but im trying to get that worked out.
I know thats kind of a lot and i dont use a lot of punctuation. I think i spilled my guts enough. Whoever reads this, thanks for listening.
Hi Justin,
I'm Jeanette, unofficial Susan's Place greeter. I'm glad you decided to stop in and visit. You're sure welcome here. And so is your friend. Come in, come on in and have a seat, get yourself a drink, take your shoes off (unless you have stinky feet. Heck what I'm trying to say is make yourself comfortable not too many of us bite. Well not unless we're asked to. Read some posts, get to know us, make a comment or two or three or...
I'm glad you told us a little about yourself. How the heck are we going to get to know you if you don't. So you liked some girly things when you were younger and would have like some pretty things for yourself? Well let me tell you, you are not alone in that. I grew up with 5 sisters and I wanted a lot of the pretty things the had and wanted to do things they could do but I was a boy
After my older brother left home I was "The" boy. I did have "access" to try some of their things on at times. I remember once hiding under my sheet in bed with a dress on when some one came into my room. I turned into a life long cross dresser.
I never felt like a woman trapped in a mans body. I didn't feel like i needed everyone to accept me as a woman either. I have fairly recently discovered that I did want to be a woman back then and even more so now, but I still have my periods of doubting myself. I was married and I preferred a passive role in bed and would fantasize I was the one receiving. When umm pleasuring myself, I would imagine myself in the female role with a man, though I have never wanted a relationship with a man, they were but a means to an end. I admit to being curious to how it would feel though.
I haven't met with a gender therapist yet but that is in the works. Last December I decided to start HRT.
Well anyway there, a little tit for tat. You now know a little about me as I now know a little about you. That's how this thing works. You share yourself with us and we share with you. Ask your questions, we'll try to help by giving you information or telling you what we did or what we would do. We''l share with you how things affected our lives if that is what you need to know. There are a lot of good people on Susan's and we all want you here. We want to help if you'll let us.
Welcome again, welcome home
Hugs,
Jeanette
