I finally made it through my first year XD It felt like forever and like no time at all o.o
So much has happened in the span of one year, and not all of it was good, but not all of it was bad. Looking back I've come a long way and looking forward there is a long ways to go still.
So as far as physical changes go, I've had a lot of fat redistribution, and there probably is a lot more to come, but I've noticed that I'm getting a nice hour glass type figure going on. My face has feminized amazingly well. Within 3 months I was able to go full time and since then I had never been mis-gendered. Looking back a year ago I don't even really recognize the person in the pictures, it just looks like a random person to me. I know it was me and I used to look like that, but I just can't see myself ever having looked like that. I have had some physical bone growth in my hip area so having some actual widening of my pelvis has been really nice. I also have noticed the curve of the lens of my eye has also changed some and my eyes seem to also have become a bit shiner or reflect light differently. The actual shape of the eyelid has changed a little so it has a really feminine look to it now. I already had long eyelashes so if anything they became a bit fuller. I have had a lot of muscle loss too. What was once something I found easy to lift is now harder. My skin is noticeably brighter and softer. As far as body hair growth. I've noticed it's become less dense and lighter and some places it's stopped growing some, but I know that's one of the slower things to fully happen so hopefully some of those areas will stop growing hair in the second year. I've noticed my body scent has changed a lot becoming very sweet almost fruity smelling. I've also lost about an inch or two in height so I'm at a nice 5'8". Oh and my eyebrows have changed in shape to an extent giving a much fuller and more curved appearance. Thankfully no more erections lol. And of course the biggest thing for me, boobs lol. in 12 months I went from completely flat to having a 36D and my doctor yesterday said I'd probably need to size up soon in the next month or two. They are also pretty sensitive. I also have the puffy areola thing going on which is normal for some women in development, kind of annoys me, but I do have some decent areola's measuring at 2 inches diameter.
For mental changes I've become a lot more attracted to men, though I'm still really nervous about them. What I like and dislike has changed too. I do like a lot of the more stereotypical things like doing my hair and sometimes doing makeup. I do take noticeably longer to get around in the morning, not sure why that is XD but it's a thing. My confidence has had a major uplift. I have found different foods that I once liked that I dislike now. I find I'm a lot more squeamish to blood. Being turned on takes a lot and I mean A LOT more effort because I have to really be in the mood and right mind set for it, but it happens. It's actually very much like a ciswomans sex drive. I'm also a lot more emotional too. My senses feel different too.
Socially things are mixed. I've lost some family over my tranition, some friends too. I've made a lot of friends, but some of them it's hard to keep in touch with and some we just had a falling out with. It's kind of sad to me because I wish I could be there for everyone, but I can't which sucks. I know talking to everyone and keeping up with a lot of people is difficult but it's one of those things it's just hard and everyone has their own lives. My immediate family is only semi-accepting. They basically have the mindset they don't need to understand to understand...makes no sense but I've given up trying with them. They just want me to be happy and feel loved but they don't agree with my transition and only tolerate it.
There is probably a lot I didn't mention, but that's just because there was so much that happened. Going forward I can't wait to see what changes happen, what growth I'll experience, etc. As far as goals, I hope I can have SRS sometime within the next year or two because that's honestly the next big step for me. beyond that I don't know. But that's been my year for the most part ^_^
