Looking for a job, transitioning, and how I felt

[Mikka55]

It's been a while since I have looked for a daytime job,  Ever Since I started my transition, today is my first time being interviewed.   When I woke up I felt great.  Its been a while since I last wore leather shoes,  business pants,  and casual business top. I didn't see myself as oh yeah I am such a "man". But instead when I saw myself in the mirror and of course tiny breasts are popping out.  I didn't feel disgusted.  In fact I said to myself and I saw myself as a Tomboy.  I felt like I was a female,  but just in Male clothing. 
This feeling is new to me,  and I don't mind it because I am starting to see more and more about myself that I can be female.

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[Daniellekai]

Haven't started HRT, but have gynecomastia anyway... Recently the way male shirts hang off them feels distinctly like cross-dressing, they've always been that big, just starting to accept that I am female inside has changed the way I think about things I guess. It's so tempting to give in to my old habits and push the thoughts down, but at the same time I take great pleasure in pushing down that temptation instead.

[Mikka55]

It's so tempting to give in to my old habits and push the thoughts down, but at the same time I take great pleasure in pushing down that temptation instead.

What do you mean give in old habits,  and what thoughts down?

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[Daniellekai]

What do you mean give in old habits,  and what thoughts down?

I meant give in to the old habit of denying, and ignore the way I feel about being trans, reading how you felt putting on your business clothes had me thinking about how I feel putting on my button down shirts, etc. It evokes the same feeling in me, but I've still got a twinge of male in the back of my head, going away slowly though.

[Mikka55]

Oh yeah everyday I do that, I keep telling myself that I am transgender.

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