In the past few months I have been coming to terms with coming out as genderqueer to the people in my life. I consider myself "both/and", and typically present androgynously. I have small aspirations of getting top surgery. I feel as though my masculinity is starting to show in public. I feel strange and don't want to make the effort to explain myself to certain people. I just came out to a friend that I used to date and I felt the need to open up space for them to "feel weird" if needed. But the conversation had no middle, and it was a blasé reaction. It's just "interesting".
I feel unreal and different. It's a heavy feeling, one that's challenging but also giving me strength. Any advice on how to handle these feelings?
