Quote from: Twoman44 on March 24, 2017, 01:42:20 AM
Jeanette,
How does your well being feel? Your mind and dysphoria? Do you have any facial or other body changes? How do you feel now that your boobs are growing?
Hmmm let's see.. Today I feel good. Yesterday, not so much. The day before. good in the morning and not so good later. But that had to do with coming out to my daughter and her husband. Normally I feel pretty good about myself.
Gender Dysphoria is a term I had never heard of until recently. I have crossdressed since I was a kid and went through all the shame, guilty, feelings that I was a pervert, etc along with the feelings of enjoyment and erotic excitement of doing it. The last eventually faded away but didn't stop me from enjoying being dressed. my dressing kept escalating with more and more items being added over time. The more I made myself look like a woman, the more I enjoyed it wishing I didn't have to take it off. It at times interfered with getting to work on time as I would wake up and proceed to get fully dressed and made up with my wig on my head and brushed out all ready to go to work as a woman. Of course I couldn't and had to take it all off and don my male attire and as a result late sometime a couple hours late. I have a dislike of Christmas because growing up I never got or had any possibly of getting the presents I so desired to get. to make it worse I had to watch my 5 sisters open their presents fill with the ting I wanted. I told a psychiatrist this stuff and maybe a bit more and they wrote " Diagnosis - Gender dysphoria"
It is my belief I appeased said dysphoria for many many years with my dressing. I also think it was the dysphoria that permitted me to start taking HRT meds without a second thought when I obtained them. It was after this I started coming to Susan's and took their advice and told my doctor. Which put me on the correct tract to HRT meds and gender therapy. Since starting HRT I am not sure if I've suffered with dysphoria. I've had my ups and downs and doubts. It's possible I suppose. I do know the folks here at Susan's help me a lot.
Facial or body change other than boobs - Not so you'd notice. My thighs may have gotten an inch bigger and I like to think I see a little narrowing in the waist but according to the tape it may just be wishful thinking.
Boobs - I love my boobs, and there is no doubt that that is what they are now. They are the most visible attribute of a woman. Large or small they scream woman! How could I not like them? From the first moment they started a noticeable bump to the small breasts I now have I have loved having them. I can cup them with my hands and massage the soreness away. There's enough there to grab a hold of. They have skin creases underneath them, though not enough to hold a pencil. (not for a while still). I can feel the bra cups pressing on the skin now. My cup doesn't runneth over yet, but there is nothing in my mind but joy of having them. Does that sort of answer the question?
Hugs and best wishes for you both,
Jeanette
