Hi all! I'm still figuring out what my gender is and how I want to express it. I'm physically female and married to a lesbian.
I recently started to acknowledge and explore my non binary side. I've talked to my wife abouit every day and today I shared with her the name I like for my not woman side. It is Jaque (pronounced Jack). The first time she called me by that name I cried.
Today we also made love for the first time since I told her I'm not a woman. I won't go into any inappropriate detail. Just want to say it was a transformative experience. I felt more in the moment than I ever have during sex.
Now I have a very urgent desire to find a wearable penis made exclusively for sex, something like a feeldoe, but with the extreme realism of a very good ftm prosthesis. Any idea where I might get such a thing?
I'm sure I'm not a woman and fairly sure I'm not a man either. At this point I want to keep my body as is and am not considering hormones.
I think a realistic penis prosthesis for intimacy will help me figure out a lot more of my unanswered questions.
If anyone could suggest a place to start my search I'd appreciate it. Thank you!