Lost motherhood/wife

[Wild Flower]

It was getting to me right now, I been watching a few sad motherhood videos right now. I was thinking, something as basic as having a baby, even a 'low-life scum' on the world could have a baby when she's not fit to have one. I can't even do that.

I am at work, and I see this loser guy (who's trying to take advantage of all the systems he can so he can go on disability/welfare/what not, and he has a child). I'm slightly jealous of him, since I know he is just a loser *but I know not everyone has this opinion, outside the people at my job* taking advantage of the system, and he only has to pay 300 dollars, and he complains about raising his daughter like it was difficult. A few days ago I told him, "Why don't you send your ex-wife money for your daughter" in a joking way when he asked, "what else should I do today?", and he was like 'filter, filter! FILTARRH!', like I said something controversial, when he says something controversial everyday. He has a very victim-mind set, but he's good looking, has girlfriends (unless he's lying), and has life dealing him a good hand of cards. I can't help but feel jealous.

I really want to be wife and a mother right now.... I been wanting to get married since I was 18, and it still hasn't happened (but gay marriage wasn't legalize until 3 years ago in the US).

[Rachel_Christina]

Ah yes this is always going to be tough, the fact we can't have children of our own.
But you know there are other poor women out there too who can't, it's not a given in life for every girl. :/
It's sad but thats just the randomness of life, everyone has some problem they must get passed.
I have not gotten to thinking much about children yet
But it does niggle the back of my mind every now and again.
I think I would make a good mum one day... Maybe...
And so can you!

[noleen111]

This something that hurts me as well.

I am currently engaged to a wonderful man, and it makes me very sad that I cant give him children. A friend of my mine had a kid with her hubby and she told me pregnancy is a magical time, uncomfortable but magical. She said feeling the child move inside you is surreal feeling. She loved being pregnant.

I would love to experience pregnancy and carry my mans child,that is one of few female only things us t-girls cant experience. 

I have read articles where doctors are researching womb and ovaries transplants.. but I would suppose us t-girls would be low on that list as understandably all the test subjects have being cis-women. I did read somewhere, cant find the source now.. that there was a woman who got the transplant, she menstruated twice and then there was a complication and she had to have it all removed again.

If my doctor had to say tomorrow.. noleen i will transplant ovaries and womb into you.. I would do it in a flash. I know it would mean I would have periods. I have being told my women, I am very lucky not having to go through periods on a monthly basis as the cramps are not fun. It just reminds me i cant have kids.

[josie76]

That could be the absolute worst part of my life being trans. Now that I'm older and have kids with my wife I don't long for being pregnant like I used to feel. I enjoyed every moment of the kids when they were babies even the crying due to cholic and diaper changing. Holding them close while bottle feeding them was wonderful. Prior to that throughout my 20s I would wake up at night crying because I wanted a baby so badly. I would feel this emptiness inside. I am at least 90% physically attracted to women but during those moments if I had been cis born I quite honestly would have taken any guys sperm just to have a baby. That's how powerful the instinct or want was then.
You always have the option of adopting a baby. There are plenty of kids out there whose mothers gave them away and need a loving mom. Don't fret, you will get there when the time is right for you. 

[Wild Flower]

noleen111 ,

Not quite sure I would do the transplant, but I think I would decline if there's not enough proven track record. I don't want to subject my child as a science experiment because I want him/her to be healthy.