Before you go any further, I would recommend finding an understanding, accepting, and compassionate therapist. It may be difficult, and maybe not particularly local to you, but it would be a good step. With the exception of iron fisted governments like North Korea, I am not trying to offend anyone here, based on my limited knowledge, I'm going to assume you're either in Russia/Ukraine or eastern Europe. Those are the only places I personally know of that ban LGBTQ. You may not have much of a choice at the time. I assume you're fairly young? Get a few years under your belt, to do a lot of research (it sounds like online would be about the only safe way you can research), and learn every small bit you can. Even if you read the same thing 50 times, read it for a 51st time. It can't hurt. But you know about hurt already. In the words of Tommy Boy (Chris Farley movie) "Holy schneike!" I had heard about monks doing that in certain areas, but never thought I would meet someone who had done it themselves. I've been told I have an extreme pain tolerance (just in differing terms) because I got a tattoo directly on my breast bone, but I can't even begin to imagine (or maybe I just don't want to) the pain you went thru.
Pardon me, I have to "Oh!" this one out for a few minutes.
I actually had to look up the definition of orchiectomy, because I had never seen or heard the word. I was shocked and scared when I found out the definition.
I personally don't have it in me to do what you did. If I reach that point in the future, I'm just going to let the doctor handle that one. I respect your choices, and dedication to your true self, but I think the self procedure may have went a bit too far. But that's just for me. It may have been totally normal for people in your area, or even expected, but where I am, I can't say I have ever heard of anyone doing it themselves.
But anyway...
I wouldn't recommend "borrowing your friends birth control" but if you feel you have no choice I can't stop you, nor would I try. When a person has their mind made up about something, there's not a whole lot you can do to change their mind.
But before you make any more rash decisions, I have 3 words for you: research, research, research. Everything. Anything. All. You can never learn too much about something. Altho some bigots would argue that statement. My sister for example, she sees a star in a circle (even an officers badge), she instantly decides they worship Satan. And she has told me specifically that she doesn't want to understand it or learn about it. That's one of the most bigoted statements I have ever heard.
And like the rest of us, you're going to have to put up with a LOT of bigotry. From all over. In some cases, our own blood.
There's not much more I can think of to say except do what you feel is right, as long as it doesn't interfere with the same right of others, and stay safe.
Jennifer RachaelAnn
