Hi,
I recently stumbled across this forum whilst looking for information on binding and don't know why I hadn't found it sooner! I sure wish I had!
I've been struggling with my gender identity for the last year or so, which doesn't sound long, but I think it's been going on a lot longer than that except I blamed my feelings on other things. I identify as genderqueer or genderfluid at the moment, but I don't know if that'll change in time... I seem to be happiest when 'presenting' androgynous but am moving further away from wanting to present female in any situation so am not sure whether 'gender fluid' is the right term for me. I'm still questioning if I really feel male or whether I don't identify with any gender at all. I sure prefer it if people read me as male but it's only ever happened once. I also had someone say to me that they preferred when I looked female which made me pretty upset at the time. It's kinda confusing, and coming to this quite late in life compared to many others, it's also a bit overwhelming...dare I say, lonely. I say late in life...I'm not even 30 yet, but to me I feel like I should have worked all this out by now.
I don't really have many people I feel able to talk to about all of these things so I'm hoping that I'll be able to talk to people here and find my feet a bit. It's like the ground has shifted somewhat and I don't know where I'm going or what I want, just that I feel unhappy with being seen as female (my birth gender).
Don't know if I just went on with myself, but look forward to talking to you all
