Thank you, that means so much! It would be such a dream come true to take hrt!
A bit about me.
Hello, my name is Emily. I am about turn 27 and have recently accepted that I am truly a woman within. I am married to a wonderful woman that I love with my all. We are expecting and I am so thrilled! In my fantasy, I transition mtf and she is perfectly happy with that and we continue to live our life we've built together. I have told only my wife about my feeling transgendered. She didn't seem angry but instead she seemed quite and maybe somewhat frustrated but I know it was because of her not knowing how to feel. She made a comment as to why I maybe felt that way. We both sorta let it go, but as in the past when I've felt my femininity at a high and pushed it away, it came back. It's been about 3 or 4 months since I mentioned it to her. I can remember as far back as around 4 years old and displaying feminine behavior. I had times at a very young age where I experienced confusion over my male genitals because I felt they shouldn't be there. As most, I tried on my sister's clothes as a teen. Not too get too caught up in my story but to sum it up, I feel positive and energetic when I dress in women's clothes with makeup, etc. it's like the male bravado fades and I (Emily) am
finally set free from the shackles society has placed upon me. When I'm in male clothes I feel so out of touch with my true self, but I know I am still that same positive spunky girl. I was raised religiously and am religious still. However, for whatever reason, I do believe some are born into the wrong body. I don't see myself ever transitioning, though I would take hrt right now if I knew it wouldn't affect so many others in my life. I know I should think about myself but I just can't do that to my wife and especially our child on the way. If I were to take hrt and have srs if it would change so much in their life too. I'm so confused as I don't want to push my femininity away any longer. I have always been told I look like I'm in my teens. I have a "baby face" naturally long eye lashes and full lips. I want to wear dresses, skirts, grow my hair out long, paint my nails, put makeup on my face and be the woman I truly am. I want the female body that match the inner me. Thanks for reading this if you have any questions or want to say hello, please leave comments. <3 - Emily
