My name is Mara (I would acually prefer to use my real name as its uni-sex but its the internet so yeah), I am 20 yrs old, and reside in Colorado where I have been all my life. I consider my self a Transsexual, although I have never been one to denotate or advocate Titles. We are all people after all.
My story is short and to the point. I always felt like a girl, wore my sisters clothes till I was 18. I got caught three times by faimily in the 13 some years I can remember dressing in secrecy (once acually wearing them by sis at 8 years old, and twice by mom finding like 20+ some things from my sis I had horded here or there at ages 15 and 17 lol) Funny stuff to be honest, but being from a Evangelical Christian home it was not accepted at all, and was really difficult.
I moved out when I was 18 and moved in with my Girlfriend, I had to keep all my "stuff" in the trunk of my mustang for like 1 year before I found a secret place to hide it all. My realtionship had always been really difficult for me because I did not tell her at the beginning and I consider Honesty really important. Well Finally I got really drunk one night at a friends house and falling asleep on the couch with her I broke down and said it all (probally way to much
), We are now in the offical fourth week of her knowing and having seen me, she is not cool with it at all, she has stated I have ruined her life, that she hates me, but then she also states that she is going to saty with me and takes it all back. Its wierd but I am hoping its gonna work out, cause she is really a high moraled individual and a great person, she's just not attracted to girls at all, and fears living and being intimate with me after transition. Plus she is mad because she considers me a attractive guy and doesnt understand this need to be pretty. lol
I finally ordered about $750 worth of decent clothing and shoes, wigs, real breast forms, ect. WHICH GETS HERE TODAY YAY!!!!
I LOVE Victorias secret. lol
I am not preparing to transistion for about 7 more months, or just around my 21st birthday.
My plans for transistion are to live as a woman 100% of the time, without any SURGERY, HRT SRS, FFS. I want to do it all without any of this, they are not for me, and to be honest I really love my masculinity as well. I would say I am 50/50 with my M/F ratio's
I just would rather live en femme and keep my anatomy, plus pleasure is important to me so SRS is not even ever an option (despite some saying it is still possible to orgasm, not for me I know that, same with HRT period if "he" doesn't work I dont either.
I would consider Real breasts, FFS and acually really want them but dont know how that would work out with my GG GF, my main priority in life is not transition but to stay with my future wife.
So there is me, I also enjoy the mountains, mountain sports, cars (love em), skateboarding, and inline (aggro) >
, good intelligent conversation, and meeting genuine people (so FREAKIN HARD I SWEAR).
OH also before i forget If you are in colorado. my GG GF and I are really looking for friends on this side of the fence, my GF more just wants another wife of a TS to talk with but I just want somebody I can relate to on this issue. Were both really laid back and genuine people that like to do fun things. Please hit me up, I dont have PM abilites yet but I am slowly posting here and there were I see my opinion fits.
thanks for reading, and hi to all
