Hi
I am so excited. After so many years of repression I have finally told my best friend a couple of days ago that I am transitioning. We have been friend for a very long time, and after me explaining everything to him, he accepted it and kept on saying I should go for it! He said we will still always be friends, and accepted it! I have been hiding this for so long, and it felt so good to know that someone that knows me so well could understand what I told him. It also gave me a lot of confidence to know that there is at least one person that I can fall back to when I eventually come out to everyone.
Since my last post, I got advice on these forums to book a therapist asap. I have steadily beengetting everything ready, and I have booked an appointment with a transgender friendly doctor at an institution that specializes in this area. The appointment is tomorrow morning, and I am quite nervous, but at the same time terribly excited! I am finally moving my life to where I need to be!
The doctor is female, and I will first have to explain that I have done some self medicating. I am planning to go to this appointment to come out to her, and explain my whole situation. I am most likely going to be told to get blood work done asap. I have previously self medicated for short periods of time on Finasteride, Spironolactone and Estradiol. That was a while ago though and for the last bit I have been on a naturally feminizing diet of Spearmint and Red Clover tea, as well as brown rice and flax seeds. I had to do this in an attempt to try and stop the testosterone, and prevent further aging as a male.
It will be very interesting to see how things go from here. All I want now is proper professional health care. I need anti androgen, and estrogen so badly. I feel so much better when I have estrogen in my system. My brain is craving it already..
I have already started my long term plan. I have gone from being a muscled guy of 198lbs when I was married and trying to run away from my dysphoria to now being slim and weighing only 169lbs and still losing weight with diet and exercise. I think if I start hormones and continue along with my current type of regimen, I could get to 154lbs and less when extra muscles come off. I then want to save up while I still present as male at work, until I can get FFS done. I want a jaw and chin reduction, as well as a rhinoplasty.
Well there is much more in the future, and everything is looking good for now. Just so excited about tomorrow, and I am hoping for the best..
Wish me luck gals
