Really sad right now

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I have a genetic disability that impairs my motor skills in my whole body. I feel like I can't achieve anything because I do things a little slower. I have no self esteem left. I feel like I'm the only person with this disability who looks "normal" facial features. I always wanted to be included with people who had no visible disabilities. My parents have given me a little crap about this before. I don't even feel like I can present well as a girl if I want to because the motor thing affects my speech. I feel like crap. I never held work before and I'm 25. I'm too behind and it's too late to catch up. People my age are already achieving their dreams while I'm stuck on SSI. I'll be stuck here for a couple more years because I can't work/go to school at the same time, mom has to strongly insist I choose one or the other. I hate God for the way he created this entire world and anybody in it with their bad unique challenges. I don't understand why you are proud to be uniquely challenged, even to the point of arrogance.

What can I do to get out of my situation. I can't drive my own car,I feel like everybody is placing limits on me. I wanted to change for a long time, but I never get to live my own life.

[EmilyRyan]

I know how you feel pretty much being also impaired to the point I do things slower both physically and mentally. No employer wants me no matter how much I try to prove value they just don't wanna accommodate my shortcomings even if they're easy to. Worst part is there are people who very much agree that employers shouldn't have to employ or accommodate us which unfortunately has caused some heated exchanges between others and I on here (and why i been absent).   

Yeah sadly it sucks and I'm sorry you're going through this as well but you're always welcome to talk to me and just wanna let you know you're not alone and there's nothing wrong with learning things slower

[DemonRaven]

Well you  managed to write what you felt on here which means you can use a computer or phone so you could do things that involve a computer such as writing poems, songs, even a book. Find a way to volunteer within your limits even if it is just being a greeter that sits and says hello.  I am on disability to and have some limits. Not the same as you probably not even as limited but I find ways to keep busy and you can too.

[Raell]

I don't know where you live or what the laws are there, but cannabis oil has been studied for curing/improving many things.

Cannabis (medical marijuana) treatment for motor and non-motor symptoms of Parkinson disease study https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/24614667