hihi people
my name is kacey, and i'm a transoholic. i'm addicted to transohol.
sorry. i am a late thirties re-re-entrant to the world of gender-->-bleeped-<-ed-up-ed-ness.
i have a full-time for real job, career almost, where i feel like i'm convincably cross-dressing to the point that i have gone to the extra-ordinary lengths to pass that i done got myself born with a penis.
but i spend my real time living as the woman i really feel i am.
currently in early process of transition, but not going to run away scared like i did the first time; i started down this path in my very early 20s, but had a near breakdown & freakout and ended up hiding under a pile of drugs.
now, i am clear headed, with direction, a long term plan, and the experience to just say "->-bleeped-<- it" to trivialities.
not to suggest i don't need help -- i need lots, to be honest. but i know enough now to just suck it up and ask. i have reached the point where hiding is the most painful thing i can do. i know i have to do some hiding still, that i need to take steps one at a time.. and small ones before big ones..
and i have friends, real friends, close friends, who are helping me. and i thank them sooo much. but i still need a place like here to just read & learn & talk & learn...
so, ya, hihi
