An observation

[alannah]

Again, I am not sure if I am putting this in the right place, but I just felt I had to put it somewhere. It isn't really a question or anything, it's just something that has happened that makes me feel really happy and I just wondered if this was a normal thing.

For the last couple of days I have pretty much made sure I have dressed in women's clothes only. I feel comfortable like that but have tried to make sure they are pretty much androgynous so I don't look "odd" to anyone who might think it looks odd.

This morning, though, for the first time, I have got up and dressed in all male clothing. But the thing is, I don't feel like I have just dressed normally. I feel I am a woman dressed as a man, sort of flipping everything on it's head. And it has made me feel so positive about everything. I know the clothes I am wearing are mine, but they are not really mine. My dressing as a man is now the sham. But, as a woman, I can get away with it.

It is a most extraordinary feeling and I just wondered if this was a normal thing?

Alannah

[josie76]

I think it has to do with changing your self image. You feel right about yourself and the daily grind clothes don't seem to matter anymore. I started feeling this way after starting HRT.

[Dayta]

Hi Alannah,

I try to remember those moments whenever I start to have doubts about what I'm doing.  I've read many accounts of people doubting their choices, and I think it's good to catalogue these feelings, especially the intensity of them, if and when you wonder about whether you're on the right track. 

Erin

[Denise]

You had me at " I feel comfortable like that..."  I don't have any grubby clothes for doing yard work so I wear my old clothes.  When I finish - off they come.

[Laurie]

Hi Allanna,

  I was thinking the very same thing myself. I have been dressing as I prefer in the apartment. I've been wearing whatever I feel like from my stash of women's clothes for a couple weeks now. Changing into my male clothes to go outside has begun to feel like crossdressing now.
  I like the freedom to wear a dress when I want even when my siste laugh at me then tells me I'm not standing like a lady or my slip is showing. Sometimes I think she is having as much fun with this as I am.
  Recently I've been leaving blinds and doors open and stand in front of them to look out. I can't bring myself to step outside yet but I'm working on it.

  Hugs,
    Laurie

[HappyMoni]

When you open up a door for your true self, it is so hard to close that door again.

[Raell]

Sounds normal to me.

I am non-transitioning nonbinary, partially transmale, and usually just dress androgynously..men's sandals, T-shirts, and plain pants with pockets I make myself.

But when I put on more femme blouses, with plain black slacks, to go to work, I feel like I'm dressing in "drag."