Quote from: JayBlue on June 22, 2017, 08:43:41 PM
Well I'm glad that the people you work with are supportive. I was in a meeting at work today, and a cis guy made a joke about transitioning to a woman. It wasn't offensive (to me anyway) and everyone laughed, but when I have to eventually come out to them, I really don't know how they are going to take it. My boss was there and laughed along with him, but then also hinted that he probably shouldn't say stuff like that. For the most part, I am not easily offended, but I do worry about keeping my job and how people will treat me.
I have no idea how my family will take it. My mom died about 5 years ago, which is why I never transitioned before this. She would not have handled it well at all so I understand what you are saying. Now it's my dad and my brothers, and I don't care as much what they think as I did with my mom. My mom would have disowned me, and I don't think I could have handled that at the time.
I've only been on T for a month now so not much in the way of changes to report, but I'm glad to be on it. Hope you are able to start soon. For me, that was a big part of really acknowledging who I want to be. 
I wish people would be more considerate about things like that. I'm not usually easily offended, either, but it does make it sort of uncomfortable thinking the people around you might not be comfortable with those who are trans*.
A coworker recently shared this pic that showed the checkboxes for male or female on FB and "meme" below those, which was checked. (Assuming you all know what memes are, haha). The text read, "I identify as a meme. If you can't accept me for who I am, you can unfollow my page." A joke, obviously. At first I was paranoid my coworker wasn't accepting of gender non-conforming individuals, but then I remembered that: 1) he was a staunch liberal who was unlikely to be anti trans*, at least compared to the rest of the community, and 2) he literally eats, sleeps, breathes, and bleeds memes. If he could spend all his time browsing and sharing memes, he would, so him sharing that a lot of sense. Pretty sure he wasn't trying to mock trans* individuals, but I have felt a little awkward around him since then.
Thankfully I don't believe I will lose my job over this. I'm still concerned to how my coworkers will respond to hormonal changes when I do start testosterone. I need to make sure I at least tell them all I identify as male before the changes get too obvious so I don't surprise anyone too badly, I think. I'm also concerned with how to tell my mother. I don't need her consent at my age, but I can imagine she'd be passive-aggressive and sarcastic about it if I told her. She sort of acts like I'm something to be ashamed of or like she thinks I'm going "through a phase." I am 26 years old; pretty sure it's
not a phase, and the feelings have been there much longer than my male presentation has.
Also concerned about where to get hormones. There's an informed consent clinic five hours away and a recommended endocrinologist who prescribes hormones maybe four hours away. In talking to my therapist this week, we decided two things: I would join a support group forum (which I have, here) and I would try calling those places just to see how they do things and potentially seek services. I may try calling tomorrow.
I have no idea which type of top surgery I'll need. I've been walking around for years thinking I was a C or D cup as that's what I'd been sized as years back, but I just measured not long ago and found that I was only a 34A?!
Not complaining, but not sure how that's possible! With a binder on, I'm apparently a AAA cup. My dysphoria must be pretty bad if I'm that off. I also wonder if my mildly elevated testosterone is part of this. My voice deepened ever so slightly and actually cracks occasionally, as well. Odd.
Anyway, I'm glad you're in a place where you can finally be comfortable transitioning! Will be excited to hear what kind of changes you see on T as well.
