Thank you ladies, sane and crazy alike! (you know who you are)
I have a thought for anyone thinking of dilation as just a thing you have to do that is routine, boring, and without much purpose. (with McGinn, 5 times daily for for first 8-9 weeks) I have maybe wondered about the number of times I do this with no real change. I was told initially that I had 5 inch depth, which sounded okay. I later heard of others having more, which I am happy for them. I was told yesterday by the doctor that it was critical to keep up dilations so as not to lose depth. I was like, yeah, yeah, yeah, I got that. Then she said I was healed well enough inside to try to increase depth and she pushed against my hand with surprising force to show me what I could do. A light kind of turned on for me. It makes sense to me now that this initial healing phase is my window of opportunity to maximize the result of the surgery. She spoke of pushing the body before the healing, in a sense, locked in the status quo. I feel like I now have a renewed purpose for keeping her schedule as well as I can. I believe, whatever one thinks of Dr. McGinn, she is committed to you getting a good result and expects you to do your part. I have too much invested in this surgery not to get the best result possible. I may never have a heat seeking missile aimed at my new best friend, but you never know what life brings. That missile could be battery powered, so I want to be ready. lol Anyway, if u have great depth already, this may mean nothing too you. Oh, time to go dilate, yipee! (Not)
Moni