Joanne's post sums up what I'm after perfectly, we sound much the same, really. I don't mind being a guy in certain ways, and it isn't a hang up for me, indeed those are just aspects of who I am.
Has anyone here had their GD intensify when they take up CDing in mid-life, or see it increase when they ramp things up after dressing on a small scale for years? I feel like that could happen to me, perhaps, which makes me wonder how strong willed I really am - or am I that strong willed in the first place? See, this is why I'm interested in therapy, and I've never bothered with conventional therapy, too. I've always avoided much of anything life that would unduly complicate things, so imagined that I knew myself. Nope!

Sadie - I wondered if my interest might puzzle some, this is a forum for MTFs after all. I'm very much still a fence sitter about transitioning right now. I am having facial electrolysis done as it turns out my very sparse facial hair also slides out like butter, so wherever I decide to go at least I won't have to slather on the foundation.

Anne - for work I underdressed for a while but gave it up. When I go out in my free time I wear androgynous womens' stuff, bra but no forms. I'm sort of a work in progress! But at home I'm 24/7. Helps that I'm a bachelor/homeowner.