I really want to just give up.

[kallaran]

I am tired of being apart of the world as just a miserable soul.

Continuing to live on only makes me feel like I am some type of masochist. I don't wish to spend another decade enduring the pain and sorrow that I feel about my body. I don't want to endure a long failing at life in general. Getting an education has been a struggle and obtaining/working a job has been one as well. I can't get job when I can't even talk to people or much less handle being around them. An education is hard when I never did too well at academics and I don't think it's worth going back to college for more failing grades till point of getting into debt.

I just don't know what to do...

I don't have any skills or anything of value about myself. I might never find success and happiness. So it seems pointless to keep going...yet here I am still trying to endure hurting. I am already broken beyond repair .

[Raell]

Being a male type, I'm more likely to offers answers than to simply agree with you that life is bad.

As for getting an education, college degrees aren't necessary to get great paying jobs. It all depends on what you love to do. Right now jobs in machining and other skilled labor are begging for workers, and pay very well. You can learn these skills in a community trade school..just google.

America's Skilled Trades Dilemma: Shortages Loom As Most-In-Demand Group Of Workers Ages via @forbes http://www.forbes.com/sites/emsi/2013/03/07/americas-skilled-trades-dilemma-shortages-loom-as-most-in-demand-group-of-workers-ages/#6ebaea406397
For the last three years, according to ManpowerGroup, the hardest segment of the workforce for employers to staff with skilled talent hasn't been registered nurses or engineers or even web developers. It's been the skilled trades – the welders, electricians, machinists, etc. that are so prevalent in manufacturing and construction

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[Julia1996]

I am tired of being apart of the world as just a miserable soul.

Continuing to live on only makes me feel like I am some type of masochist. I don't wish to spend another decade enduring the pain and sorrow that I feel about my body. I don't want to endure a long failing at life in general. Getting an education has been a struggle and obtaining/working a job has been one as well. I can't get job when I can't even talk to people or much less handle being around them. An education is hard when I never did too well at academics and I don't think it's worth going back to college for more failing grades till point of getting into debt.

I just don't know what to do...

I don't have any skills or anything of value about myself. I might never find success and happiness. So it seems pointless to keep going...yet here I am still trying to endure hurting. I am already broken beyond repair .

I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. Have you ever thought about cosmetology as a job? I took cosmetology while I was in high school. I did that because I was totally afraid my parents might throw me out when they found out I was trans and I wanted to make sure I could do something to survive without them. I don't know how far you have transitioned but the really good thing about cosmetology is that it doesn't matter what you are. You can be trans, fluid, non binary or a super fem androgynous boy which is what I was before transition. It doesn't matter!  People expect hairstylists to be "exotic" in some way or other.  You can also make some good money. I work for a couple who owns a salon and barber shop and I switch back and forth between both. I make a lot of money for a 19 year old. I'm starting college in the fall but if something happened and I couldn't go I still could support myself. It's just a idea but maybe look into it. I hope things get better for you .

Big hugs
Julia