Well my wife finally said it. She doesn't see anyway for us to fix our relationship. She put her ring away and said I should think about taking mine off to. We've been bouncing back and forth for months, actually years but so much worse lately. It seems she goes from affectionate to indifferent to angry/hateful every few days.
We've been together for 11 years almost, married for just over 10. We made it through 2 miscarriage losses. A teenage boy who was angry himself with bipolar mood swings. Her bipolar issues. My inner trans issues. The teenager is now grown up and doing well. We have 2 beautiful young daughters. We had periods of anger at one another. Loneliness while existing in the same house. But we had made it, almost.
She wants to go to school and finish a degree. I support her. She has an apartment now about an hour drive from our house. She wants the kids to be there for the next school year.
She was never exactly an affectionate person. She normally only hugs me because she knows I am affectionate but lately she would want to be near me some days. Then shrug me off. Then make me feel unwanted. The other night she told me how she had come to the conclusion we should no longer be a couple. Later that night she cuddled up next to me. The next morning she said that we shouldn't let that happen again. It's like getting my heart broken over and over and over again.
Tonight I'm at our house with our two babies sleeping in the bed next to me. In the coming weeks and months I'm going to be seeing less of my kids. This breaks my heart almost worse than when she said didn't see us being a couple. I have been there every moment of my kids lives from their births onward.
I am rambling now. I'll stop.
