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coldHeart

July 26, 2017, 06:28:36 PM
Though I might share this
After weeks of doom gloom & more doom I've, managed slowly to get my are of of my head & except that I am trans, so I've mange several LBGT meeting where I have met some wonderful human beings & make one or new friendly on the way.
One new friend MTF I got invited around to there home, so I went armed with 101 questions, the out come her wife has told me she what's to give me a full make over & commented that I look more femme than most cis  woman my body shape is good my face, hair but I still feel I don't, is this the dysphoria! Also so was meant to start HRT in a few weeks but yet again another cock up on the results ( thank you NHS ).
But on the good side I,m started to live a little more as Sara taking each day at a time & if I don't look like a beauty Queen then so be it, so no rant this time just a few words. Sara
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tgirlamg

#1
July 26, 2017, 07:01:18 PM
Sara!!!...

Now this is the kind of post I've been waiting for sister!!!... You've been quiet the last few days and I worry about you like a mother hen more than you'll ever know!


Sounds like you are building up your local support and that is so great!!! Keep doin' what your doin' girl ... All will be well :)

And please... One favor for your sister in California?... Get rid of that depressing avatar!!! We are on a journey of hope here and that negative stuff is baggage we don't need weighing us down along the way!!! :)

You've totally made my evening with this post and you know I am always here if I can be of help!!!

Onward we go brave sister!!!

Hugs and Love!!!

Ashley :) ❤️🌻
"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment" ... Ralph Waldo Emerson 🌸

"The individual has always had to struggle from being overwhelmed by the tribe... But, no price is too high for the privilege of owning yourself" ... Rudyard Kipling 🌸

Let go of the things that no longer serve you... Let go of the pretense of the false persona, it is not you... Let go of the armor that you have worn for a lifetime, to serve the expectations of others and, to protect the woman inside... She needs protection no longer.... She is tired of hiding and more courageous than you know... Let her prove that to you....Let her step out of the dark and feel the light upon her face.... amg🌸

Ashley's Corner: https://www.susans.org/index.php/topic,247549.0.html 🌻
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coldHeart

#2
July 26, 2017, 07:05:38 PM
Ashley
I was just about to delete this post as I did not thing it important but I will change the avatar for you sister but what to I'm not sure!
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tgirlamg

#3
July 26, 2017, 07:09:49 PM
Quote from: coldHeart on July 26, 2017, 07:05:38 PM
Ashley
I was just about to delete this post as I did not thing it important but I will change the avatar for you sister but what to I'm not sure!

You leave this post just where it is my friend!!!!....and pick something happy!!!! :)

A❤️
"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment" ... Ralph Waldo Emerson 🌸

"The individual has always had to struggle from being overwhelmed by the tribe... But, no price is too high for the privilege of owning yourself" ... Rudyard Kipling 🌸

Let go of the things that no longer serve you... Let go of the pretense of the false persona, it is not you... Let go of the armor that you have worn for a lifetime, to serve the expectations of others and, to protect the woman inside... She needs protection no longer.... She is tired of hiding and more courageous than you know... Let her prove that to you....Let her step out of the dark and feel the light upon her face.... amg🌸

Ashley's Corner: https://www.susans.org/index.php/topic,247549.0.html 🌻
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Kendra

#4
July 26, 2017, 07:29:57 PM
Sara, I can barely contain my excitement reading your post.  I am so glad you found good local people.  And we are here.  Ashley is just down the street from you (well, it's called Internet street).  We really do care about you.

I miss the avatar with your dress from when you went to your first meeting.  The awesome dress with cool patterns. 

You go girl!  Own it. 
Assigned male at birth 1963.  Decided I wanted to be a girl in 1971.  Laser 2014-16, electrolysis 2015-17, HRT 7/2017, GCS 1/2018, VFS 3/2018, FFS 5/2018, Labiaplasty & BA 7/2018. 
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Rachel

#5
July 26, 2017, 07:46:28 PM
Sara, I am so happy you have found some friends at group. Community is so important; make more trans friends.
HRT  5-28-2013
FT   11-13-2015
FFS   9-16-2016 -Spiegel
GCS 11-15-2016 - McGinn
Hair Grafts 3-20-2017 - Cooley
Voice therapy start 3-2017 - Reene Blaker
Labiaplasty 5-15-2017 - McGinn
BA 7-12-2017 - McGinn
Hair grafts 9-25-2017 Dr.Cooley
Sataloff Cricothyroid subluxation and trachea shave12-11-2017
Dr. McGinn labiaplasty, hood repair, scar removal, graph repair and bottom of  vagina finished. urethra repositioned. 4-4-2018
Dr. Sataloff Glottoplasty 5-14-2018
Dr. McGinn vaginal in office procedure 10-22-2018
Dr. McGinn vaginal revision 2 4-3-2019 Bottom of vagina closed off, fat injected into the labia and urethra repositioned.
Dr. Thomas in 2020 FEMLAR
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tgirlamg

#6
July 26, 2017, 07:51:33 PM
Hmmmm.... An avatar with bats now eh?... Still seems a little dark Sara but, it is better than the previous one so I will let you slide this time sister!!!! :)

Besides!!!... In China they are considered a blessing so we will go with that interpretation!!!...

Bats. ... The Chinese symbols, or characters, for "bat" (蝠fú) are the homonyms of "fortune" (福fú) or "blessings." People tended to paint five bats in paintings to symbolize the "Five Blessings," health, long life, prosperity, love of virtue, and a tranquil, natural death.Apr 13, 2014

Hugs and Much Love!!!

A 😀🌻💗
"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment" ... Ralph Waldo Emerson 🌸

"The individual has always had to struggle from being overwhelmed by the tribe... But, no price is too high for the privilege of owning yourself" ... Rudyard Kipling 🌸

Let go of the things that no longer serve you... Let go of the pretense of the false persona, it is not you... Let go of the armor that you have worn for a lifetime, to serve the expectations of others and, to protect the woman inside... She needs protection no longer.... She is tired of hiding and more courageous than you know... Let her prove that to you....Let her step out of the dark and feel the light upon her face.... amg🌸

Ashley's Corner: https://www.susans.org/index.php/topic,247549.0.html 🌻
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josie76

#7
July 26, 2017, 08:15:28 PM
Sara, your post is very important!  :D It's great that you are finding bits of yourself. and bits of feeling happy? I hope so.

Reading your post gave me a big smile. Sometimes just seeing someone els find a way out of their darkness is just what we all need! Don't ever shy away from good news!

Thank you for sharing it with us. :)
04/26/2018 bi-lateral orchiectomy

A lifetime of depression and repressed emotions is nothing more than existence. I for one want to live now not just exist!

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tgirlamg

#8
July 26, 2017, 09:02:48 PM
Quote from: josie76 on July 26, 2017, 08:15:28 PM
Sara, your post is very important!  :D It's great that you are finding bits of yourself. and bits of feeling happy? I hope so.

Reading your post gave me a big smile. Sometimes just seeing someone els find a way out of their darkness is just what we all need! Don't ever shy away from good news!

Thank you for sharing it with us. :)

Wise words Josie!!!... A little sunshine around here can go a lot farther than we realize and touch the lives of people we may never know in a good and positive way!!!! 😀❤️🌻
"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment" ... Ralph Waldo Emerson 🌸

"The individual has always had to struggle from being overwhelmed by the tribe... But, no price is too high for the privilege of owning yourself" ... Rudyard Kipling 🌸

Let go of the things that no longer serve you... Let go of the pretense of the false persona, it is not you... Let go of the armor that you have worn for a lifetime, to serve the expectations of others and, to protect the woman inside... She needs protection no longer.... She is tired of hiding and more courageous than you know... Let her prove that to you....Let her step out of the dark and feel the light upon her face.... amg🌸

Ashley's Corner: https://www.susans.org/index.php/topic,247549.0.html 🌻
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Kendra

#9
July 26, 2017, 11:09:27 PM
Quote from: tgirlamc on July 26, 2017, 07:51:33 PM
Hmmmm.... An avatar with bats now eh?
Ashley, this is Sara's way of saying we will go to bat for her.  We are all in this together.   :)
Assigned male at birth 1963.  Decided I wanted to be a girl in 1971.  Laser 2014-16, electrolysis 2015-17, HRT 7/2017, GCS 1/2018, VFS 3/2018, FFS 5/2018, Labiaplasty & BA 7/2018. 
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tgirlamg

#10
July 26, 2017, 11:21:11 PM
Quote from: Kendra on July 26, 2017, 11:09:27 PM
Ashley, this is Sara's way of saying we will go to bat for her.  We are all in this together.   :)

Indeed we will and..Indeed we are 😀💗🌻
"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment" ... Ralph Waldo Emerson 🌸

"The individual has always had to struggle from being overwhelmed by the tribe... But, no price is too high for the privilege of owning yourself" ... Rudyard Kipling 🌸

Let go of the things that no longer serve you... Let go of the pretense of the false persona, it is not you... Let go of the armor that you have worn for a lifetime, to serve the expectations of others and, to protect the woman inside... She needs protection no longer.... She is tired of hiding and more courageous than you know... Let her prove that to you....Let her step out of the dark and feel the light upon her face.... amg🌸

Ashley's Corner: https://www.susans.org/index.php/topic,247549.0.html 🌻
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Laurie

#11
July 27, 2017, 02:36:55 AM
  Sara,

  Sorry I didn't see this until now. You should know by now how I feel about your post. I've told you so many time to go talk to someone, anyone. To quit feeling sorry for yourself and get out there and do something to get help. Haven't I?
And once again you have and with more good results. This is just the kind of help and support you need girl. Don't stop now. I understand times are going to be rough for you and you are going to want to slide back into your old pattern. DON"T you dare do it Sara don't you dare. Just keep looking for help and you will get what you need.
  I really like the tone of you post. Keep it up.

Loves ya Sara

Hugs,
   Laurie
April 13, 2019 switched to estradiol valerate
December 20, 2018    Referral sent to OHSU Dr Dugi  for vaginoplasty consult
December 10, 2018    Second Letter VA Psychiatric Practical nurse
November 15, 2018    First letter from VA therapist
May 11, 2018 I am Laurie Jeanette Wickwire
May   3, 2018 Submitted name change forms
Aug 26, 2017 another increase in estradiol
Jun  26, 2017 Last day in male attire That's full time I guess
May 20, 2017 doubled estradiol
May 18, 2017 started electrolysis
Dec   4, 2016 Started estradiol and spironolactone
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Kendra

#12
July 27, 2017, 08:08:13 AM
Sara girl you are beautiful!!  I'm not just talking about looks - you are doing beautiful things.

I wish for you to be happy.  If you were happier the other way I would wish for you to be that way instead, but clearly that isn't the case.  Be patient and be good.  Enjoy who you are. 

Kendra 
Assigned male at birth 1963.  Decided I wanted to be a girl in 1971.  Laser 2014-16, electrolysis 2015-17, HRT 7/2017, GCS 1/2018, VFS 3/2018, FFS 5/2018, Labiaplasty & BA 7/2018. 
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Sarah_P

#13
July 27, 2017, 12:35:10 PM
Good for you Sara!! Sorry to hear about the HRT delay, but you'll get there! Stay strong!
:icon_hug:
--Sarah P

There's a world out there, just waiting
If you only let go what's inside
Live every moment, give it your all, enjoy the ride - Stan Bush, The Journey



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davina61

#14
July 27, 2017, 12:55:36 PM
Now that's made me feel better (pi55ed of with a sore eye) , when you get the make over post a pic as your new avatar as I think you will look stunning.Hugs hun
a long time coming (out) HRT 12 2017
GRS 2021 5th Nov

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HappyMoni

#15
July 27, 2017, 01:56:49 PM
Sara, this sounds so promising. Go for the positive, Girl.
Moni
If I ever offend you, let me know. It's not what I am about.
"Never let the dark kill your light!"  (SailorMars)

HRT June 11, 2015. (new birthday) - FFS in late June 2016. (Dr. _____=Ugh!) - Full time June 18, 2016 (Yeah! finally) - GCS June 27, 2017. (McGinn=Yeah!) - Under Eye repair from FFS 8/17/17 - Nose surgery-November 20, 2017 (Dr. Papel=Yeah) - Hair Transplant on June 21, 2018 (Dr. Cooley-yeah) - Breast Augmentation on July 10, 2018 (Dr. Basner in Baltimore) - Removed bad scarring from FFS surgery near ears and hairline in August, 2018 (Dr. Papel) -Sept. 2018, starting a skin regiment on face with Retin A  April 2019 -repairing neck scar from FFS

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coldHeart

#16
July 28, 2017, 07:09:26 PM
Sorry Ashley but I must be a Jedi, now I have been touched by the dark side it keeps pulling me in, I will try my hardest to stay on the right track but the seeds of doubt have been sown & already there starting to grow.
Thanks people for the positive remarks.
Sara (cidle)
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tgirlamg

#17
July 28, 2017, 08:16:51 PM
Quote from: coldHeart on July 28, 2017, 07:09:26 PM
Sorry Ashley but I must be a Jedi, now I have been touched by the dark side it keeps pulling me in, I will try my hardest to stay on the right track but the seeds of doubt have been sown & already there starting to grow.
Thanks people for the positive remarks.
Sara (cidle)

Please keep trying to stay in a good place with this process Sara!!!! ...Let's keep hope alive in our hearts and minds and get you through to the HRT stage here!!!.... Thngs will open up for you and are going to be better and better so hold on sister... If you can't hold on for yourself right now... Hold on for me!!! ❤️

Hugs and Love!!!

Ashley

"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment" ... Ralph Waldo Emerson 🌸

"The individual has always had to struggle from being overwhelmed by the tribe... But, no price is too high for the privilege of owning yourself" ... Rudyard Kipling 🌸

Let go of the things that no longer serve you... Let go of the pretense of the false persona, it is not you... Let go of the armor that you have worn for a lifetime, to serve the expectations of others and, to protect the woman inside... She needs protection no longer.... She is tired of hiding and more courageous than you know... Let her prove that to you....Let her step out of the dark and feel the light upon her face.... amg🌸

Ashley's Corner: https://www.susans.org/index.php/topic,247549.0.html 🌻
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Laurie

#18
July 28, 2017, 10:30:20 PM
Quote from: coldHeart on July 28, 2017, 07:09:26 PM
Sorry Ashley but I must be a Jedi, now I have been touched by the dark side it keeps pulling me in, I will try my hardest to stay on the right track but the seeds of doubt have been sown & already there starting to grow.
Thanks people for the positive remarks.
Sara (cidle)

Sara Dear, You are your own worst enemy. You go get a little help by finding and talking with other during which hope springs eternal in you. Then you go and let something get you down and you are off on the brink of destruction.

  NEVER EVER GIVE UP HOPE!

Don't do this to yourself Sara, please. When whatever it is that threatens to bring you down comes to calls fight back by getting out of your own head and go tell someone how you are feeling and what is bothering you. Get help girl. Be proactive in your own happiness and seek out others that can kelp you. Doing it IRL will help you more  than we can online but ,Honey, we are always here for you. So if you need to talk by all means come talk. PM me if that will help you more. You know I will answer you as soon as I see it is you.

  Hugs,
   Laurie
April 13, 2019 switched to estradiol valerate
December 20, 2018    Referral sent to OHSU Dr Dugi  for vaginoplasty consult
December 10, 2018    Second Letter VA Psychiatric Practical nurse
November 15, 2018    First letter from VA therapist
May 11, 2018 I am Laurie Jeanette Wickwire
May   3, 2018 Submitted name change forms
Aug 26, 2017 another increase in estradiol
Jun  26, 2017 Last day in male attire That's full time I guess
May 20, 2017 doubled estradiol
May 18, 2017 started electrolysis
Dec   4, 2016 Started estradiol and spironolactone
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