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I got bashed at work today

Started by Julia1996, June 28, 2017, 04:15:29 PM

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Julia1996

Hi everyone. I had the worst experience I've ever had since I transitioned.  This guy came in for a haircut and it was someone I know and absolutely hate! I don't usually hate anyone but this guy I totally do! His name is Dan. He was my dad's best friend. The reason my dad isn't friends with him anymore is because he always had a huge problem with me. And that was before I had transitioned.  He would say things about my albinism. Say it was a shame they couldn't fix it medically, etc. Once I got older and everyone started thinking I was gay he hated me. He would say stuff about me to my dad right in front of me. Telling him he needed to "straighten me out". He told my dad he should put me in military school. That he should go through my stuff and throw away anything that looked "gay" and to cut my hair even if he had to hold me down. He even suggested a church camp that "cures" gay people.  I guess my dad got sick of it cause they stopped being friends. So Dan walks into work. When I saw him I knew something bad was gonna happen but I wasn't expecting the stuff he said to me. If anyone else had been available to cut his hair I would have passed him to them. For like a second I thought maybe because he hadn't seen me since I transitioned maybe he wouldn't recognize me. Of course he totally did. He used my old name and said hi but he didn't say anything else until he sat in the chair. Then he had a lot to say. The first thing he told me was how stupid I look. Then he said " I can't believe Jack allowed you to do this to yourself. You are kind of pretty but you're still a man and you are always going to be a man no matter what you do to yourself. If you think surgery is going to make you a woman you're wrong.  No normal man is ever going to want to ## an inside out dick. Even though you can't take it off you're still wearing a woman costume."  Then he told me I already had been a embarrassment to my family being albino but how could I totally humiliate them by making myself a even bigger freak. I always imagined how I would respond to someone that ragged on me for being trans. But when it actually happened what did I do? I couldn't say anything.  I just started crying . When my boss noticed I was crying he rushed over to see what was wrong.  Dan said " I don't think he liked what I had to say. The truth hurts."  My boss told him to leave and that we didn't need his business so he didn't need to return. I'm also upset because instead of telling him off like I should have I just cried. I'm sure he loved it that he made me cry, and it makes me really mad that I did. I know I need to be tougher about this stuff but I was totally not expecting him to say all that. I've never had anyone verbally assault me like that. It totally caught me off guard. And now I'm wondering if I really am a embarrassment to my dad. I really hope he doesn't think I am.
Julia


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MissKairi

People lile that do get their karma.
Big mouthed 'alpha male' bull->-bleeped-<-.

For what its worth I think you look great and he is simply wrong. You wont be a man because you arent one. Youre a girl. full stop.
Let's see where this journey takes me.
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Tammy Jade

To me it sounds like your dad did the right thing when they stoped being friends.

I wouldn't beat urself up to much about how you responded. The first time I was confronted I did the same thing. I just stood there then kinda ran.

I was lucky because it was a random person but I with it being someone from your past who knows your family that would have hurt so much more.

The fact your dad previously cut ties with this guy says to me your dad has your back, and so in that mind that shows he is not embarrassed by you.

To me it just sounds like this guy is a complete jerk and quite possibly he would have just kept pushing and getting nastier and nastier until he got a response.

You are an amazing person don't let some horrible bigoted dark aged morons lies get you down. If you do he is winning, don't doubt yourself he was just a insensitive idiot.

If he was happy to bully you over your albinism (hope I got that right) he already was a horrible person to begin with.


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rose

He have serious mental issue in his head
Glad your dad did not Lsn or still friend with him

Next time don't give him the change
Plus don't make him win by thinking you're shaming your family

I understand how you feel and what you experience because I deal with the same thing from people all the time

He is homophobic / transphobic and full package of $hits

Be safe xx
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jess1972

There will always be haters honey, you are bigger than him and is b.s..

Had i been there, i would have wipped the pavement with him, but then im just a big dood in a dress lol.

Smile and dont let the bastard win xxxx



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Sno

Julia, have a (hug).

Folk can be vile. Look at your dads behaviour - he cut this jerk out of his life, and kept you front and centre.

Says a lot really.

It also says a lot that your boss noticed, cared and acted for you - you have support.

Finally, those who are most vociferous tend to be trying to hide or deny something - keep strong, you look amazing and your support network sounds fabulous :)

Rowan
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RobynTx

Your boss had your back.  That is a great thing.  Your dad is no longer friends with that idiot so that's another great thing.  Not saying this was the time but there are times when not saying anything is better than yelling or screaming at some I'm betting he intentionally walked in hoping to get a rise out of you.  He was probably hoping to get someone to agree with him and it sounds like no one did.   I'm proud of what you have accomplished so far.  Don't let one insignificant person get in your way.


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JB_Girl

Quote from: Julia1996 on June 28, 2017, 04:15:29 PM
I've never had anyone verbally assault me like that. It totally caught me off guard. And now I'm wondering if I really am a embarrassment to my dad. I really hope he doesn't think I am.

An embarassment???  Girl you are the love of his life.  Never, ever, forget that, it is just the way being a parent is.  You will discover that if you have children. (BTW, having children means that you care for, nurture, and love the young ones always)

Peace,
Julie
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Janes Groove

There is no way another person, who one does not have a very close personal relationship with, to be so invested in you.  To have such passion about who you are.  Be very careful of this one dear.  He is severely mentally deranged.  Steer clear of this obviously nutcase psycho.

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RobynD

So very sorry that happened. What a complete jerk. Can you imagine the crappy life he must have and issues he must face to treat someone so badly? Bullies usually see karma indeed.


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Balerie

I'm with Jane on this one. He's a special kind of psycho. Take care of yourself and don't let his hate make you doubt yourself or your family. He is the one that is an embarrassment to his family and himself. You did nothing wrong and you're reaction is nothing to be ashamed of. Huge hugs to you.


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Lisa_K

"Real men" don't need to make teenage girls cry to feel better about their own shortcomings, if you know what I mean? What a jerk. Tell your dad, for sure.

You and I both started hormones and transitioned at the same age. I'm 62 now and in all my years, no one has ever said such things to me or treated me so disrespectfully except online from someone hiding behind a keyboard. All you can really do is let it roll off your back and consider the source.

He's right about one thing - surgery and what is or isn't between your legs is not what makes you a woman. You are because you are but you already know this. Oh! And he's totally wrong about guys too.
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elkie-t

Your response was probably the best :) Next time he shows up for a haircut, tell him to look elsewhere because your boss said so. And ask your dad to get a restraining order on the guy for you :)


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natalie.ashlyne

I know you feel embarrassed but that guy is a jerk No man period  would put down anyone he embarrassed  himself and his family  a real man would not start a fight or put down a female a real man would pick on some body his own size
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Deb Roz

what a mean, cruel person this man is!  I'm so sorry you had to go through that!   

You did just fine in a terribly rough situation.  You are beautiful.  You don't deserve that treatment. 
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Dena

Your father has shown time and time again that you are not an embarrassment to him. He started your transition and more than once, defended you.

That said, if I were in your place, once Dan opened his mouth, I would have put my hands to my side and told him that he is going to look a little strange with a buzz cut and if he continues to sit in that chair, that's what he is going to get. He may have the mouth but you have control over how his hair will look.
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billyjeans

If you ask me, someone who does this I has a specific motivation. If he really didn't like LGBT people, he might say something but then avoid them. In this case he actively seeks out people to harm verbally. This might not be the case here, and I can't know, but what's the chance that Dan is a closeted person, and it makes him angry that we can do these things that he cannot find the courage to do himself. He can't stand the freedom that we have given ourselves to be our selves even if we have fought for it.   Either way you are beautiful and living at your authentic self, he is the one being weak.


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Denise

Quote from: Dena on June 28, 2017, 08:16:49 PM
Your father has shown time and time again that you are not an embarrassment to him. He started your transition and more than once, defended you.

That said, if I were in your place, once Dan opened his mouth, I would have put my hands to my side and told him that he is going to look a little strange with a buzz cut and if he continues to sit in that chair, that's what he is going to get. He may have the mouth but you have control over how his hair will look.
I totally agree with Dena on this one.  I might have done something really evil like... Nevermind. 

You are not an embarrassment at all.  How many people said congratulations, proud of you, that's awesome.  Anyone like Dan is either jealous or closeted.  (That's the way I look at it and laugh a little at them.)

Be you, be proud.

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Michelle_P

Oh, what an abysmal, mean-spirited little man.  Having to tear down those around himself as part of his daily existence is a pathetic way to live.

I'm so glad your boss told him to leave and not return.  Like your dad, he did the right thing.  These are decent human beings, with an intact sense of empathy toward others, including you.  They acted to try and prevent further attacks on you by this little monster.

Please don't take yourself to task for how you behaved under extreme emotional duress.  You're a decent human being, with emotions and empathy, and being so viciously and irrationally attacked by someone while simply existing and doing your job is a terrible experience, and one nobody should be planning or rehearsing for.

Coming here and sharing the experience, and finding support is a good move on your part.   I think we all empathize with you, and many of us have shared in this sort of experience.  We survived it, as you did.  Don't let it alter your thinking about yourself.  The opinions of someone so obviously unsane, who has excised themselves from the human race, cannot matter to us. 

I think we're all proud of you, and wish nothing but the best for you.  I'm sorry you had to have this brush with evil.

Hugs, Michelle
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annaqnguyen

The fact that he said you are "kind of pretty" tells me all I need to know.  He finds you attractive, too attractive for comfort.  He feels his heterosexuality, whatever that is, being threatened because he sees someone attractive who, in his narrow little mind, doesn't conform to the notion of people he is attracted to.  Lashing out at you in the way he did was his defense mechanism against that unsettling attraction.  His own issues will be the Hell he has to live in for the rest of his life.  That's not your problem.
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