Allie's Blog IV: Revenge of Allie's Blog

[Oldandcreaky]

No apology needed. I enjoyed all three posts.

I have bitsy breasts and thus often don't bother with an undergarment, but when I do wear a sports bra, I look so much neater.

The quality of your marriage and the quality of your friends are telling. Their good energy comes from your goodness.

[imallie]

No apology needed. I enjoyed all three posts.

I have bitsy breasts and thus often don't bother with an undergarment, but when I do wear a sports bra, I look so much neater.

The quality of your marriage and the quality of your friends are telling. Their good energy comes from your goodness.

Awfully nice of you to say, and greatly appreciated. I do think it really speaks to the character of those I've been lucky enough to surround myself at least as much, though.

Regardless, the bottom line is I know how very lucky I am and do not for one moment take it for granted.   

[imallie]

Well, it's finally here - "Hair day!" 🐇🤔😉😂

Very excited, but, I have to admit... as with every big step on the journey, there's always an element of "imposter syndrome" that bubbles up on these days, and partially mutes my excitement — at least initially.

There's always a part of me who feels/wonders if I'm not authentic... who measures my story against others and finds it wanting — although I know I have no reason to do so. And it makes me wonder if THIS step will be the one that is too far... where I will take it and feel as if I have finally stepped on the third rail, on what previously had just been a casual walk down the tracks on my journey.

With everything in the past — first day of electrolysis, hormones, telling my wife, my family, etc etc etc... I have found each step not only affirming but energizing. But even so, the day begins with this germ of a doubt, as this one does too.

So... very VERY excited about this morning... but there's still that small part of me cautiously watching for warning signs.

Love,
Allie

[Jenn104]

Well, it's finally here - "Hair day!" 🐇🤔😉😂

Very excited, but, I have to admit... as with every big step on the journey, there's always an element of "imposter syndrome" that bubbles up on these days, and partially mutes my excitement — at least initially.

There's always a part of me who feels/wonders if I'm not authentic... who measures my story against others and finds it wanting — although I know I have no reason to do so. And it makes me wonder if THIS step will be the one that is too far... where I will take it and feel as if I have finally stepped on the third rail, on what previously had just been a casual walk down the tracks on my journey.

With everything in the past — first day of electrolysis, hormones, telling my wife, my family, etc etc etc... I have found each step not only affirming but energizing. But even so, the day begins with this germ of a doubt, as this one does too.

So... very VERY excited about this morning... but there's still that small part of me cautiously watching for warning signs.

Love,
Allie

I feel that same way. "Is this the one that feels like one too many?". Funny thing, it hasn't ever been. I get surprised by even the smallest of small steps.

I read your blog and think you are authentic to the core. Not even a doubt. Enjoy the moment. I kinda think you have this.

edited in- You not only have this, you have earned it and deserve it.

Jenn

[Oldandcreaky]

Hair should be huge for you, Allie, as far as how people see you. How much of your facial hair remains?