Quote from: elkie-t on August 02, 2017, 07:20:20 PM
What was it? What changed you so much from guilt-driven person not sure if it is ok to dress femininely to a therapist, to a blossoming young lady that is fully out to work (and presumably home) in such a short period of time?
Oh, Elkie... Sometimes I stop and ask myself that very same question. I think that, since the end of 2016 until now, I was fortunate enough to be living the proverbial "perfect storm". Right place, right time, right people, right workplace, right profession, right wife, right kids, right physical potential and all this lead to, well, the right mindset. A part of this was a function of my efforts and success fighting shame and fear, but I'm also humble enough to reckon that there was a big part of fortune to it all.
Fortuna imperatrix mundi, isn't it?
The other day I was reflecting about all this and I felt that it was really like a domino effect. The dominoes were there all the time, since the very moment of my birth, full of potential but still useless until triggered by something. That trigger came a few months ago, as you know. And a domino effect goes fast... So everything was more or less already in place, the raw material was there all along. It just needed a spark to light up.
And also, as many of you girls have pointed out, it
does get easier. This morning I went to the ED were I work. There were two colleagues who were leaving their shift, and two others starting (one of them my boss, to whom I came out not earlier than yesterday morning). One by one, I invited them to a private room and came out them... The three of them reacted in a totally calm and accepting way, saying that they understood, that I should indeed follow my own path to happiness and that whatever I needed I could count on their full support. One of them told me she was already pretty sure that I was transgender because she had seen almost the same changes while working with our colleague Dr. Winne Haenen (whom I mentioned in a post yesterday) when she was going through her own transition. So you see, Elkie: it
is undeniably the perfect storm!
Quote from: elkie-t on August 02, 2017, 07:20:20 PM
Was it your first public outing into the town (where you took a walk by a river)?
Well, that was a milestone indeed. I remember that I felt a big lack of confidence before that and the fact of daring to do it once, inevitably made subsequent moves not only easier, but even desirable! It was one the first dominoes to fall, I think... But not the first. I think that it all began about 6 months ago, when I said to myself: "Stop fighting her. Stop fighting yourself. You are a woman and were never meant to be anything else besides a woman. Take the step and don't look back". I accepted who I was, who I've always been. From then on, the dominoes just started falling one after the other... [emoji4]
Hugs, Sarah
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