Hi everyone, iv been a memeber here for quite some time but have never posted, but i am so down right now and confused, i have been in the process of transition but quite slow steps i am out full time and have a gender therapist, the problem is im having second thoughts about everything and dont know if this is right for me, recently i have noticed i obsess over things i always have i just never noticed it, i havent been diagnosed with OCD but in myself i relise this could be it all along, what if i got obsessed about being trans when i was younger, i grew up with my father and my 3 sisters my father was out working all the time so i was around girls pretty much all the time, i loved playing with girly things and deep down always wanted to be like them i wanted this. Ore and more in to my teens and in to my 20's i was ashamed and refused to accept the thoughts i was having to abide by society's rules, i slept around alot something im not proud of, but no matter what i did the thoughts cane back harder everytime, i was 30 a fee months back a year into transition and due to start HRT in september, but now i feel the whole thing could of been me obsessing about being the oppersite gender growing up around girls etc...sorry for the rant im just so lost right now, i am MTF 30 years old i have a. Ery supporting partner but i dont feel i can put her through any further of my issues right now thank you in advance.
