Hi Rose,
from the get-go my suspicion substantiated you must reside in a muslim-dominated country. As the others already said, you need to find a way out of there. As a كافر) (kāfir) / nonbeliever you're on their list (فتوى) / keyword 'fatwa', not to mention being trans and having the 'wrong' sexual orientation.
At that place there's no future for you - even on your own 'family' you can't rely at all, they already seem to be 'poisoned'. Do not trust anybody anymore, please! If you can't leave that country in a legal way, you must get out illegally. I would not recommend UK, Germany, France - or generally central Europe - you would jump out of the frying pan into the fire, because on the long run it is expected that same dire conditions will slowly but surely prevail also in central Europe for known reasons.
Canada as final destination (for you the English speaking area) is absolutely recommendable. Get your stuff together and plan carefully!
Here you are at the right place - at least that opportunity you got!
All the best my dear!