On T: day 1, the transformation is about to begin

[Dan]

Finally, I've had my first T injection today. My butt is still stinging * ouch *.

I'm still coming to terms with my T doc writing a letter to my regular doc about the next course of action. In the letter I was referred to as 'he' and 'him', and my new male name was used.  This will take some time to digest. It was always surreal to be referred to as 'her' and 'she' and I let it wash over me over the years. 

This is now getting real. I'm still feeling like it hasn't really sunk in, apart from the very real pain in my butt, it feels like a dream. 

[Cindy]

 

Many years ago I sat in the car park of my local pharmacist and took my first blue pill.

I realised what it was to be human, I became happy.

My love and congratulations on your T and your travels.

Cindy

[Elis]

Congrats

Yeah; takes a while to get used to your new pronouns and name. Plus it feeling real that you're now on T and it's not going to be taken away.

The first year is the hardest but it's worth it.

[Dan]

Many years ago I sat in the car park of my local pharmacist and took my first blue pill.

I realised what it was to be human, I became happy.

My love and congratulations on your T and your travels.

Cindy

Thank you, Cindy. 

[Dan]

Congrats

Yeah; takes a while to get used to your new pronouns and name. Plus it feeling real that you're now on T and it's not going to be taken away.

The first year is the hardest but it's worth it.

Thanks, Ellis, it's always good to hear that I'm not alone with the newness of it all

[Devlyn]

Yays! Congratulations, dude! You're on your way now! 

Hugs, Devlyn

[Dan]

Yays! Congratulations, dude! You're on your way now! 

Hugs, Devlyn

Thanks, Devlyn. One small stab in the backside to kick me off

[JayBlue]

Finally, I've had my first T injection today. My butt is still stinging * ouch *.

I'm still coming to terms with my T doc writing a letter to my regular doc about the next course of action. In the letter I was referred to as 'he' and 'him', and my new male name was used.  This will take some time to digest. It was always surreal to be referred to as 'her' and 'she' and I let it wash over me over the years. 

This is now getting real. I'm still feeling like it hasn't really sunk in, apart from the very real pain in my butt, it feels like a dream.

Hey, congrats!  I am pretty new to all of this too. I don't have a name picked out yet as I'm only out to a few people and until I can regularly pass, then that's the way it's going to stay for the most part as I'm afraid of how my workplace will react.  How did you pick your name? I have a few that I like, but then they don't seem to fit me.

So far there are a few subtle changes that only I'm aware of. The only one that is noticeable to others is my voice, but it just sounds like I have a cold as my voice is raspy.  I can't wait for more changes, but I'm also nervous about them too.  To a certain extent it still feels like a dream.....   

[eyesk8rboi]

Finally, I've had my first T injection today. My butt is still stinging * ouch *.

I'm still coming to terms with my T doc writing a letter to my regular doc about the next course of action. In the letter I was referred to as 'he' and 'him', and my new male name was used.  This will take some time to digest. It was always surreal to be referred to as 'her' and 'she' and I let it wash over me over the years. 

This is now getting real. I'm still feeling like it hasn't really sunk in, apart from the very real pain in my butt, it feels like a dream.

Ayyyyyeeee!!!!!! That's so cool! I know exactly how you feel. I got my T-letter yesterday....and I was referred to as Mr. and He and I just couldn't stop reading it! It's so awesome.

Congratz....Wear that butt-pain with pride!

[Dan]

Hey, congrats!  I am pretty new to all of this too. I don't have a name picked out yet as I'm only out to a few people and until I can regularly pass, then that's the way it's going to stay for the most part as I'm afraid of how my workplace will react.

Thanks, mate.   That's my strategy too. I won't come out at work until I've reached a point or am reaching a point where my voice has changed enough for people to wonder what's going on.  The thing is, if it doesn't change enough to bat any eyelids, I'll just leave it at that until it does ( which could take longer than just a few months, it's just impossible to predict).   In other words, I'll play it by ear.  In the meantime I'm thinking of how to come out at work, since I'm working across so many branches, it won't be a one size fits all approach. I haven't got a solution to that yet.

We have some strong anti-discrimination and diversity policies, but I will read through them again and maybe pass it by my union lawyers to help me avoid any traps and loopholes in the policies.

My guess is that there will be people who don't care about me doing whatever, there will be others who will find it against their religious beliefs. I'm concerned about the latter because those types want to impose their belief system on others. I'll see how it goes.

How did you pick your name? I have a few that I like, but then they don't seem to fit me.

I'm leaning towards using the masculine version of my name. I like it a lot and I don't really want to give it up. So, it's in trial mode with my doctors. I might yet change it totally. Considering I haven't considered any alternatives with seriousness so far, it might just be what I'll choose in the end. I probably need to make a decision really soon now, because all my medical stuff is beginning to carry my male name and gender marker, even! This is all moving faster than I had anticipated.  Having re-read what I just wrote, and thinking about using the masculine version of my name and now I feel about it, I'm now 99% sure I'll use that. But my girly middle name has to go for sure.

So far there are a few subtle changes that only I'm aware of. The only one that is noticeable to others is my voice, but it just sounds like I have a cold as my voice is raspy.  I can't wait for more changes, but I'm also nervous about them too.  To a certain extent it still feels like a dream.....   

24 hours into the butt jab, I'm already imagining that my voice has dropped .... yeah, right, self delusions.  My greatest fear is that I might go bald. So far no males in my family are bald, I even had my DNA checked for chances of going bald. Apparently low, but it's not something that is possible to predict confidently.

It's like being in a twilight zone: waiting for something to happen and not knowing how it will manifest itself. This is the most interesting project I have worked on so far

[Dan]

Ayyyyyeeee!!!!!! That's so cool! I know exactly how you feel. I got my T-letter yesterday....and I was referred to as Mr. and He and I just couldn't stop reading it! It's so awesome.

These events sure feel good. Progress is being made!

Congratz....Wear that butt-pain with pride!

It's a helpful reminder that it's all very real.  It's been 24 hrs since the jab and it's pretty much worn off now. That leaves me with the knowledge that I've got 1000mg of T circulating around my body, ready to be gobbled up by whatever needs it.  I'm now fixated on reading up on how T acts in the body.

Not long now for you! I hope you get some sleep the night before the big jab; I sure didn't

[seth.james]

Congrats Dan! Excited for you. Can't wait to join you in the T-ranks! Sounds like there's a few of us who will be starting pretty much at the same time.

[eyesk8rboi]

These events sure feel good. Progress is being made!
It's a helpful reminder that it's all very real.  It's been 24 hrs since the jab and it's pretty much worn off now. That leaves me with the knowledge that I've got 1000mg of T circulating around my body, ready to be gobbled up by whatever needs it.  I'm now fixated on reading up on how T acts in the body.

Not long now for you! I hope you get some sleep the night before the big jab; I sure didn't

Prepair for the 3 H's for sure!!!

Hungry
Horny
(H) for less Horrible at building muscle!

(totallynothighrightnow)

[Dan]

Prepair for the 3 H's for sure!!!

Hungry
Horny
(H) for less Horrible at building muscle!

(totallynothighrightnow)

I was concerned about the hunger because I'm trying to get in shape and need to lose about 5 kg ( which is all stuck around my waist and belly), so I asked my doc about that. She said that this is not a big issue for most as long as you keep exercising, which I do regularly anyway. The big plus is that I'll have far more exercise tolerance and so I will be able to exercise more intensely which should counterbalance any extra hunger.  We'll see how it pans out.

If you haven't got a regular exercise regime ( cardio and strength training) get one up and running. I'm a former personal trainer so it's pretty easy for me to set things up, plus there are tons of online resources to get you going.

Have fun!

[Zaire13]

Dude! Me too!! I got my shot on the 11th and I told everyone what names I want to be called and now Im in the mall feeling awkward after realizing that even though so much has changed for me I still have awhile to go before people automatically register me as male. At first I was so excited I felt like I was already a man, and inside I always felt like a boy but now Im thinking so much. Overtime Im misgendered or my friends slip and say the wrong name it feels like... a stab. almost like nothing really changed. But a lot did change. and will change.

[Dan]

Dude! Me too!! I got my shot on the 11th and I told everyone what names I want to be called and now Im in the mall feeling awkward after realizing that even though so much has changed for me I still have awhile to go before people automatically register me as male. At first I was so excited I felt like I was already a man, and inside I always felt like a boy but now Im thinking so much. Overtime Im misgendered or my friends slip and say the wrong name it feels like... a stab. almost like nothing really changed. But a lot did change. and will change.

Hey Zaire,

Welcome aboard on the T-train!

Patience is now the key. In 12 months time you will definitely be a changed man, at least that is the case for most people.

We also need to remember that while we live with our changes everyday, others still have to adapt to who we are becoming. Many we will pick up after our train passes their station a few times  , some might just get left behind. Their loss. We shall move on!

[Zaire13]

Hey Zaire,

Welcome aboard on the T-train!

Patience is now the key. In 12 months time you will definitely be a changed man, at least that is the case for most people.

We also need to remember that while we live with our changes everyday, others still have to adapt to who we are becoming. Many we will pick up after our train passes their station a few times  , some might just get left behind. Their loss. We shall move on!

Thanks so much!! And yeah thats how I figure it. I have one friend, who's also my roommate now, anddddd a straight girl I used to sleep with anddd I love her to death but she can really kill my vibe sometimes when she misgenders me, or calls me my birth name, or just completely tanks on queer politics. I know she doesn't do it on purpose but its like so frequent that these mistakes are made I'm not sure how to educate her except through videos. Also again probably doesn't help that I hooked up with her for 6 months and wasn't sure how to properly discuss her sexuality with her. Its like idk I see myself as a guy so sometimes she made me feel less than by not also seeing me as a guy but saying things like, "Im attracted to your masculine qualities", instead of just admitting it's me that she's attracted to regardless of my physicality right now.

So it's like to me, Im like mostly straight with some pan tendencies so it didn't feel like my biological differences should have been enough for her to ....other me? I think thats it.