Crying

[JoanneB]

I think I cried so much today because my most potent dysphoria snuck up on me.  I feel devastated that I can never give birth to the baby that I would hold to my breasts. 
Sigh, Jessica

I almost totally lost it one day at the airport seeing a new mom sharing the joy, wonderment and magic of this strange and new world with her toddler.

[steph2.0]

For me recently it was while standing in front of the Hallmark card rack in Wallyworld. I started out looking to see if they actually carried the Hallmark Transition card I'd heard about. I didn't expect to find it in this part of the country, and I didn't. Then I started looking for a birthday card for my Mom, and that's when I almost lost it.

I doubt it was actually because of the hormones, though. In my appointment yesterday my endo said my levels were still nearly cis-male (we're working to fix that now). The ocular leakage was probably because I knew that the day after her birthday party I was going to come out to her.

For those who haven't seen my other postings, despite my terror, everything turned out wonderfully.

Stephanie

[Jessica]

I almost totally lost it one day at the airport seeing a new mom sharing the joy, wonderment and magic of this strange and new world with her toddler.

I'm tearing up again, that is the one thing that hrt and srs will not be able to achieve until the future technology is able to transplant a uterus.  I've heard it could be a reality within the decade.  Too late for me though.
Kisses, Jessica 🙋🏼