These days, after a number of transition steps and being 300% focused on the topic of transition, I find there are more and more moments where I'm not thinking or talking about transition or being trans, and in those moments I have a sense of "being" ... it's like I'm just me ... but when I'm saying something as simple as that—meaning when I say "it's like I'm just me"—is actually me saying too much for even that qualification is sort of like a form of transition talk.
No... there are these moments of just being (without saying that or having to think it)... I'm just living life, doing things, working, whatever... it's those moments these days that feel to me like an authentic self. I feel I actually pass more, and am more comfortable at those times. Those times seem to be more and more.
I guess to me that's a form of womanhood... but I can't prove or compare anything. I know in those moments i'm easily able to interact with others with a feminine self... for example, I can complement a guy as a woman... I can equally compliment a woman... but the former would have been impossible for me as a repressed genetic male... and it would have been cloaked in fake machismo overtones that didn't ultimately fit me... borrowed shells. So I sense womanhood when I sense freedom to express and be responsive as what I believe a woman within me to be.