I am not sure what has been happening lately and I hope this continues to get better. Recently, I have been so content with myself overall that I dont really feel too much dysphoria. To the point that even when i wake up in the morning and see facial stubble or go to the bathroom and see that nasty thing flop out I still do not like either of those things, but I feel not attached to them. In otherwords I dont even really feel the male things anymore, and instead of fixating on those male things I look in the mirror and see a happ female. As I did today and felt a bit sense of euphoria even in the mix of feeling normal and just doing regualr life living and thinking.
I havent felt this detached from ''maleness'' for this long of a period of time (cant really give a number) argueablly since ever, but especially since my April 2016 breakdown where life went nuts and I lost my mind and could only seem to fixate on the ''male stuff''. Which as you all know made me go off the edge. I did have one really really really terrifying nightmare about two weeks ago but it didnt effect me much. And since then I have only felt more secure. I am a bit lost as I dont know if this is a new chapter of some sorts of self identity or if i am back where I should have been but only more stable.
