I want to transition, but rationally it seems absurd

[echo7]

If I offered advice in figuring yourself out, I would say go out as a female (away from your hometown if needed) and look at how it makes you feel. Experience, don't theorize. The lists mean nothing.

This is good advice.  For many people, we won't know until we try.  Living in fear and paralyzed by inaction is the worst thing you can do.

[DawnOday]

Another great post Moni. Thanks for your wisdom.

[Nevoxia]

Another great post Moni. Thanks for your wisdom.

I second that. A great post and I thank you, Moni, for sharing it.
I am still in the process of cycling back and forth between scared and excited, sure and unsure. Each time I read a post like this I feel like it really adds one more piece of support to arrive at the correct decision.

[kayla1618]

I second that. A great post and I thank you, Moni, for sharing it.
I am still in the process of cycling back and forth between scared and excited, sure and unsure. Each time I read a post like this I feel like it really adds one more piece of support to arrive at the correct decision.

It seems that we are at the same stage of our decision to transition Nevoxia. 

Every passing day is like a roller coaster of "yes! Im going to do it!", to... "no, are you f*ing crazy, you'll give up so much".

I fluctuate between these two states multiple times a day, but I feel myself moving closer and closer towards a decision with every passing day.