One of my worst fears is that I will die in a flaming car crash or something, not that I would die but that they wouldn't know any better and bury me with those things.
Very fortunate for me that looking the part hasn't ever been a major thing. Six foot three and totally male looking from head to toe. I look more like an NFL linebacker except I'm really not wearing the shoulder pads. If I wasn't at all over weight I would be right at 225 pounds. If a major part of my dysphoria was passing in public I would most certainly be in deep doo doo. Even if 10 years on high dose HRT could give me a reasonable level of feminization I would be looking right at my 80th birthday. Ya just don't see very many sexy, femme 80 year olds. For me it's simply not how I look but rather how I feel, very fortunate I think. For me the very worst part of how I feel is the evil twins. 16 more days and that problem will be solved. Finally, only waited 60 years for the 26th of this month. The HRT is a tremendous mental and physical comfort and breasts are completely natural, normal, right feeling. Nope, I'll never be "right" but soon I won't be nearly so "WRONG".
