Quote from: Allie24 on September 29, 2017, 07:54:05 PM
Thank you all for your advice... I really needed some talking down there. About twenty four hours after publishing the initial post I was able to get my head straight. I'm not going to castrate myself... as desperate as I feel to have something done I'm willing to wait until a doctor can do it properly.
I have an unhealthy obsession with annihilation. I fear everything I know and love disappearing. I'm sure it has a lot more to do with me, though, than the rest of the world, and this is something I will definitely be bringing up with my therapist.
I just hate having this thing attached to me like some toxic growth that is going to poison my body if I don't take my spiro... ugh. To have it done away with will be a mercy.
Yeah well annihilation, inebriation and so on?
There are going to be no Mega Tornadoes, global Warming or Climate change great granschildrenx100 will be dealing with. But Tornadoes now that may knock out your power for a week or destroy you home, Hurricanes and Puerto Rico is having a hard time now, and Ice Storm, Blizzard or whatever else. It is really good to be prepared with at least a weeks worth of food on hand. But Castration with a Rubber band?
I am glad you got out of "the idea" because within about three days you would be in excruciating pain and then go septic and then when the grid was up again Allie may be no more.
Hey I prep for the apocalypse too. It really isn't a bad thing to do. Within a week you can have wine. You have enough food for a week at least and if you have and can shoot a .22 then the squirrels are plentiful because no on hunts them anymore.
But the world is not going to end tomorrow so don't put your life at stake especially if you have a BF and so on.
So don't sweat the small stuff and I am sure others will laugh at me so go ahead everyone.
But I damn sure ain't going to put my junk in a tourniquet because if something happens then my whole attention would be on keeping myself and my BF alive and not whatever dysphoria I may feel And I seriously doubt my BF would leave me for another woman.
It may sound like BS but am I wrong?
