Hey, Becky! You're sure not alone in what you're feeling, most all of us deal with this off and on all the time. Even the clearly passing and pretty girls here have doubts about this or that and will post about it. Take a look around next time you go out, you will see women (and men) of all shapes and sizes and types of faces. If you've ever been around the world, you would even find differences from where we live in other cultures. I'm such a late starter I know I can never catch up, but I still try like hell! This really is about trying to feel complete inside and you have to try to not be too influenced by the very social and cultural issues that got us in this mess to start with. Make a list of the things you worry about most and start to take a baby step to address some of those fears. Don't let them paralyze you. You said you have a good SO, that's huge and we all know that, maybe she'll help. GCS will come if you really want it and work for it. There are those where who have waited a long time before they were able to take that step If you're concerned about your weight work on that while you save for GCS. Everything will come together when the time is right. Just be accepting of yourself, that alone will be the first thing people notice and have the greatest effect on how they see you. Toni
