Confusion!

[rockallnight]

I'm not sure if this is the right place to post it, but anyways.
Okay so here's the deal. I'm a girl, biologically speaking. I have recently come out to myself and some people, because for as long as I can remember I have thought of girls in "that" way. However, I also like guys.
Anyways, so the thing is: I DESESPERATELY want to be a guy wanting to be a girl. In other words, I don't feel comfortable being a girl, especially around other guys. A surgery would be out of the question, because I don't want to be a girl who wants to be a boy -- rather, the other way around. My friends have advised me to talk to a doctor, at least so I can't get through the confusion, but I don't want to.
Help, please. Has this happened to any of you? How did you cope with it? It's not because of stereotypes or anything, I just don't want to be a FtM. I don't really know what to do.
Thanks.

ETA: Just fyi, I'm not "confused". I have felt this way for years now, and it just keeps getting worse



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[jonjon]

I hear your confusion.

But speaking to a doctor will really help, they will point you in the right direction and get you the right kind of help you need.

I desperately feel the need for a male biological body and i know for def my brain is more on the male side of things than the girl side. But i know for a fact as soon as i do get the surgeries done and everything, one of my dreams/desires/fantasies is to run around in womens clothes and do women stuff! lol Sounds crazy, but it sounds like you would understand. I just have a major fascination in all things... (hang on while i find a word for it... intersexual??  Multi sexual???  lol who knows) I'd love to try out a drag queen career, or maybe even pole dancing... but non of those things sound all that great while in the female body.

So yeah, stick around here, there are some great people on these forums and we will all help you figure yourself out and maybe best to book that doc's appointment and look into what help they have available.

[rockallnight]

^ Yep. Exactly! Thank you!!! That was exactly what I meant. What are you going to do? Any pointers? Thanks!!

ETA: I added you on MSN, hope you don't mind!

[jonjon]

Hey! Thanks for adding me to your buddies! 

I'm going for the actual sex change cos i know thats where my heart lies.

[OtokoSuki]

Same here. In a male's body that I crave for, I would definitely try out some dresses just for fun.