Hi everyone, I'm two-thirds of the way through the NHS (UK) gender clinic process and have my third appointment in three weeks' time.
I'm AMAB transfeminine non-binary and desperately want to begin taking estrogen. I fully understand the changes taking estrogen and blockers will cause - and I want them all more than I've ever wanted anything in my life.
My first gender clinic appointment was very tough indeed, and the pyschologist basically told me that it would be "highly unlikely" that they'd prescribe estrogen to someone in my position. I basically told her that I wanted to present as female some of the time and as male at others - and that I'd bind my breasts if doing certain things, such as going to the football with my dad.
After that, I asked myself plenty of questions and realised that, although I'm not a transwoman, that is where I could probably end up. I've also made loads of changes, such as telling my parents I'm trans, coming out to all my friends and colleagues on Facebook, changing my name legally to Andie by deed poll, freezing my sperm, etc, etc.
I'm also less concerned what other people may think. Eg, if someone at the football says anything, I'll just tell him I'm trans - and he can take it or leave it.
So that's kind of where I am. But I'm still concerned that the gender clinic will think I'm "not trans enough" because I don't want to cross over all the way - at least not yet - and may deny me treatment.
I just wondered if anyone else had had a similar experience on the NHS and could give me any advice. It appears that most NB people were AFAB, so I guess I'm in quite a minority.
Thank you,
Andie xxx
