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[Russngrl]

Hi all,

I'm 67 years old and very strongly m2f.   I have no idea how I've lasted as long as I have without transitioning except for the love I feel for my wife of 30 years.   I have always "passed" (I hate that word) without hormones, but a year and a half ago a dam burst inside me.   The push to transition just got too strong.

We started therapy, I restarted electrolysis (face was already 99.5% done), and eventually started low dose estrogen (I was in horrible shape, depressed, sobbing, - I mean, lose my wife or not transition - yikes, what a dilemna).

We were able to work some things out, I now volunteer once a week at a non-profit (passing as cis).   But still, I will lose her if I transition.

Now, I have to stop my estrogen due to an ischemic stroke I had a few days ago.

Who knows what's next.  But I still have my volunteer job. :

[V M]

Hi Russngrl 

Welcome to Susan's Place    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

Hugs

V M

[Northern Star Girl]

Hi all,

I'm 67 years old and very strongly m2f.   I have no idea how I've lasted as long as I have without transitioning except for the love I feel for my wife of 30 years.   I have always "passed" (I hate that word) without hormones, but a year and a half ago a dam burst inside me.   The push to transition just got too strong.

We started therapy, I restarted electrolysis (face was already 99.5% done), and eventually started low dose estrogen (I was in horrible shape, depressed, sobbing, - I mean, lose my wife or not transition - yikes, what a dilemna).

We were able to work some things out, I now volunteer once a week at a non-profit (passing as cis).   But still, I will lose her if I transition.

Now, I have to stop my estrogen due to an ischemic stroke I had a few days ago.

Who knows what's next.  But I still have my volunteer job. :

@Russngrl 
Dear Russngrl:
Thank you for coming to the INTRODUCTIONS FORUM as our lovely member @KathyLauren suggested in her welcome message to you earlier today on another thread that you posted on. 
Thank you also writing your interesting posting about yourself.  Also, please know that you are always welcome here.  Many of our members will now be aware of your arrival to the Forums and will be able to share with you and you with them regarding your questions and comments.

Since you have already been Officially Welcomed to Susan's Place
by KathyLauren I also desire to give your a warm Welcome to Susan's Place.
I am thinking that you may have lots more questions and concerns, this is the right place for you to be to find out what others have done that may have been in your circumstances.
Be aware that there are a lot of members here that can identify with your situation..
 
You will find this a safe and friendly place to share with others  and to read about others similar trials, tribulations, and successes.  When frustrated or if you have successes you can share it here on the Forums if you wish and receive support from others and offer support to others. ....

***It's a very good chance that you might find that you will make some new friends here. 
Please come in and continue to be involved at your own pace. 

In her Welcome Message  KathyLauren  included Important LINKS that will tell you about Susan's Place.  Included there is information about the site that will help you navigate around and best utilize the features here.   
Please look closely at the LINKS in RED, answers are there to many questions that new members ask.   

Please don't be a stranger, we want to share postings and thoughts with you.

Again, Welcome to Susan's Place.
Danielle

[Russngrl]

Thank you, Danielle.

Another complication has developed and I wonder if other members are in a similar situation.  I had a small stroke over the weekend in the ballance centers in my brainstem.   I pretty much have recovered (except for some small spelling errors). 

But no more estrogen for me.  I'm not going to risk my life.   

I see my gender doc soon.  Maybe an antiandrogen will keep things the way there are.  We'll see.  At least, I wasn't planning transition, although I ache in my bones to do so

[Carolina]

Hello Russngrl,

  Sorry to hear of your stroke, lets hope that its residual effects are minimal. 

  I'm a few years older than you and not as strongly oriented, being a cd who is comfortable only being "out and about" occasionally.  And I have a wife who is not as accepting as your's seems to have been (I've been following various threads, both from the "transitioner" view as well as the "wife" view, where people talk about that struggle).  Good luck with the struggle -- and remember to keep thinking about possible ways to achieve what you need that might also work for her.

  Meanwhile, welcome to Susan's Place.  I think you'll like what you find here.

    Caroline

[Alice V]

Hey!

Sorry to hear about your stroke and your wife view on transition. It's tough situation, but you have great attitude. Hope you'll find a way to make things better than now.
Welcome here!

Btw, thanks for link to female voice club I'll consider to use it later, but saved it ^_^

[MaryT]

Hi Russngirl,
I am so sorry that you are having so much stress in your life.  I hope that everything works out well for you.