My profile name, well, I don't want to use mine and I don't know that I need to change it. So it can be that for a bit while I work things out. I've been researching and reading for the past month or so and kept ending up on this forum, so here I am.
Where to start? I don't know so I'll probably ramble a bit, apologies ahead of time for that. If this is too much for an intro, please move to appropriate forum section, thanks.
I'm male, I still seem to think as male. I can't put label on myself and the truth is, I don't want to. Over the past few years I've developed more strongly "feminine likes" (stereotypical description I know, sorry). I've been dismissing them and hiding it. Recently it worsened to the point (that I now know of as, mild? body dysphoria) of taking new steps. I started hating my genitalia being there, wishing they weren't and a longing for breasts. That's what led me here - tucking 24/7 for a month now and I feel much better, not perfect but better.
I've always preferred panties to 'mens' undergarmets. Wearing them was problematic though due to fear of getting caught. I was very young when I first cross-dressed and I liked it but stopped. just curiosity? maybe, not anymore. I kept a pair of panties hidden in my bed during my teen years to wear while sleeping. When they were found (shared bed, my folks didn't know who's) I stopped. Again, fear of being caught. I preferred shopping womens clothes, fear kept me at a distance and denying any likes.
Once I knew how I was headed, I started talking to my wife. I've told her everything at this point. Once we got past the "Is he going to leave me for a guy" worry we could discuss the rest. To be clear, no desire for men and I love my wife. She's been very accepting still wrapping her head around it but then, so am I. She's tolerant of mixed couple but very much a M-F F-M relationship.
These past 2 weeks we went clothes shopping. She helped me pick out panties and slacks (she really likes me in girls pants .. whoo ..). I also found that I like, and she likes me, wearing short shorts. We went through the blouses. I picked up a few that matched my likes that are not typically found in mens shirts. I tried each one (wow, no wonder girls take so long clothes shopping!) to make sure of fit and style, she had to like them too - that's a must. I fully understand and want her to like what I wear.
I did not try dresses, tbh, I think I look ugly in a dress. I did pick up one skirt for future trials, we'll see. Bras? no bra. Why would anyone wear a bra if they didn't have too?
That's enough for now. Feel free to ask anything about what I think or feel, I'll try to answer to help clarify where I'm at. All I know is that I am much happier right now, I feel good and very relaxed.
Oh, btw, I'm 57, married 35 years. I do NOT have a womans body shape, probably why dresses look bad on me :/
ps. I know there might be concern that I am trolling, well, I can't prove one way or the other. I hope you just accept my honestly and post at face value.
thanks for being here.
