Hello, I'm Lindsey.
I've been following this forum for a while now and am just not getting the courage to post.
I'm a 6'6" tall 40-year-old transwoman from the Seattle area. Married, for now, and have two daughters, teen and pre-teen. My wife is not a lesbian, she has gone back and forth a couple times on whether she will stay or go. I have a feeling it will be the former. She has been great, it would be very hard for me, but I would try to understand if she couldn't carry on with the marriage.
I have known something was up since around puberty. Growing up in the 90's, I did not know what transgender was beside what others deemed wrong. So, I suppressed those feelings and thoughts as long as I could. It became the main cause of anger and depression from then on.
I have tried to find other reasons for the feelings, trying to at least find some sort of release.
My wife has been my biggest supporter. About 3 years ago, the feelings got too strong to ignore or suppress. I tried to find a way to make something work with my wife without accepting being trans. When my wife asked if I was trans, that just opened the floodgates. I started seeing a therapist shortly after. I finally found a good one and the help has been lifesaving.
Even though I know I have some concerns to deal with, being quite tall being one of them, I knew that transitioning had to happen. I started HRT Feb this year, it feels great. It feels right.
I am 'Out' to my wife, children, and my in-laws. They have all been accepting and supportive. I only have a couple friends, I have not told them. They most likely will not be as accepting, but that is okay, I rarely spend time with them. I do need to build up a support system as it is not fair for me to put it all on my wife.
I work as an Commercial Electrician. The construction industry is the kindest to women, let alone transgender women. So, that is another concern.
I am still presenting as male most of the time. I keep it minimal at home as my youngest daughter is having a bit of a rough time with her daddy changing. My oldest is accepting. I have not ventured out into public as Lindsey. I get so anxious, it will probably be quite some time until I do. I'm sure I'll get there, just not sure when. So many of you are so courageous, gives me hope.
Anyways, I could go on a lot longer, but here I am.
