The Roll Show! (Filmed Live in Front of a Studio Audience)

[Roll]

So as I sit here waiting for my HRT appointment to begin, I got fidgety and decided I'd make a thread for myself like others have. Serving as a chronicle of me, everyone's 73rd favorite topic, and my progress through the fun! Of course I will also be posting random crap. Because that's just hat I do. Did I say hat I do? That was probably supposed to be what I do, but hat I do works too. I've already begun.

So of course no news on HRT front yet, I thought I'd post something that amused me...

The other day, I was fully dressed for my therapy appointment, and as is often the case I had a water bottle with me. Afterward, I, uhhh, undressed (redressed?) and went downstairs with said water bottle and set it on the counter while beginning to work on dinner. My sister asked if it was my water (people around here lose track of their water bottles a lot), and I knew it was so said yes. Well, she kept asking which really started to confuse me. Finally she said "I don't think that's your water bottle, it's got lipstick on it." ... ... Well, that stopped me cold. Fortunately, in my obsession with cherry coke, I had recently bought a cherry coke chap stick and was able to play it off as that must have been the chap stick. So moral of the story is... Cherry coke chap stick is amazingly delicious and I should probably not eat it.

[bobbisue]

  Great save on the chapstick   How do I get tickets to be in the live audience

    bobbisue

[MaryT]

Great.  If you want to keep your secret a while longer, you may need to work harder, though.  As I once said diplomatically to someone, just because people don't argue with you, it doesn't necessarily mean that they believe you.

[Laurie]

Quick thinking Ellie. Now for your next challenge I want to see how you explain away coming out of the bathroom after a bath or shower with cute earrings in your pierced ears. ( I know my sister noticed by the strange look I got)

[Julia1996]

So as I sit here waiting for my HRT appointment to begin, I got fidgety and decided I'd make a thread for myself like others have. Serving as a chronicle of me, everyone's 73rd favorite topic, and my progress through the fun! Of course I will also be posting random crap. Because that's just hat I do. Did I say hat I do? That was probably supposed to be what I do, but hat I do works too. I've already begun.

So of course no news on HRT front yet, I thought I'd post something that amused me...

The other day, I was fully dressed for my therapy appointment, and as is often the case I had a water bottle with me. Afterward, I, uhhh, undressed (redressed?) and went downstairs with said water bottle and set it on the counter while beginning to work on dinner. My sister asked if it was my water (people around here lose track of their water bottles a lot), and I knew it was so said yes. Well, she kept asking which really started to confuse me. Finally she said "I don't think that's your water bottle, it's got lipstick on it." ... ... Well, that stopped me cold. Fortunately, in my obsession with cherry coke, I had recently bought a cherry coke chap stick and was able to play it off as that must have been the chap stick. So moral of the story is... Cherry coke chap stick is amazingly delicious and I should probably not eat it.

OMG, cherry chapstic got me out of a lot of potentially awkward moment. I always had cherry chapstick with me. I actually wore tinted lip gloss though. The first time I wore lipgloss my dad noticed it and asked why I was wearing lipstick. I told him it was cherry chapstick.  Being the cop he is, he wanted to see the chapstick. After he looked it over he said ok but he asked why I didn't get the no color chapstick.  I told him it tasted nasty. Lol.  So I always had it with me in case someone asked me if I was wearing lipstick. It usually worked with guys. Girls not as much. Lol

[Bari Jo]

This is a good idea.  I may start this for myself too.

Also, I love the lipstick story, nice recovery.  I am thinking of owning the makeup if asked since what I like to sneak here and there is eyeliner, not much, just a hint.  I think if anyone asks if I'm wearing eyeliner ny answer will be yes, do you like it?  Not sure if that's a good idea or not with mascara, or lipstick marks:)

Oh, and own the earrings too Laurie!

Bari Jo

[Sarah_P]

This is definitely a good idea! I really need to post more often in mine....

Personally I'm addicted to the cake batter chap stick, but that's clear so I wouldn't be able to pass off lipstick as it. I once had some e.l.f. lip gloss that tasted like brown sugar... it's hard to keep it on because I kept licking my lips. 

[Laurie]

Oh, and own the earrings too Laurie!

Bari Jo

That happened about 20 years ago Bari Jo. I no longer have that problem. I wear at least one set of earrings  almost 24 hours a day now. It's both sets filled when I go out. You can do that when you're full time even at 65.

Laurie

[Bari Jo]

That happened about 20 years ago Bari Jo. I no longer have that problem. I wear at least one set of earrings  almost 24 hours a day now. It's both sets filled when I go out. You can do that when you're full time even at 65.

Laurie

Hee hee, I meant for Ellie, just referencing you since its your question.  Full time seems like such a dream, jealous and happy for those doing it.

Bari Jo

[Roll]

First things first: Appointment went well, but she is going to have to do some research and speak with my hematologist about any potential interactions with my Thrombocytopenia (the low platelet count). This seems to be a new one for everyone I've spoken with, maybe I'll finally get to live my life long dream of being a medical case study. Oh, no, wait. My dream was to be a body farm cadaver and help catch a murderer postmortem. (Body farms are a real thing. Thanks for the knowledge, CSI reruns!)

But yeah, I'm going to see if I can speak to my hematologist today or tomorrow over the phone and explain what is going on before he learns from a random call about this. I spoke with my father on the issue, and he said while it's fairly common for doctors to learn stuff this way, he would definitely appreciate hearing it from me first. So doing that this afternoon, then getting bloodwork tomorrow after I get the lab order, and unless something does come with the ITP I was told I could have prescription within a week or so!

SO EXCITED.

  Great save on the chapstick   How do I get tickets to be in the live audience

    bobbisue

Oh you don't want to be the audience, trust me. We've got a sort of Saw 3 situation going on.

Great.  If you want to keep your secret a while longer, you may need to work harder, though.  As I once said diplomatically to someone, just because people don't argue with you, it doesn't necessarily mean that they believe you.

Fortunately I am not actually that worried about keeping it secret at this point. I'm just waiting to tell her until me, my dad, and my step mother work out a way to approach it with her comfortably. She has a lot of insecurities, and actually had some gender image issues in the past (she had a weird panic when she was a kid when someone convinced her she might be a "hermaphrodite") so there is a little concern she may internalize it in some way.

What's really funny is that she has asked me if I was wearing makeup before, when I wasn't actually wearing makeup. (When one of my psoriasis meds works, it really really works and I had a bizarrely smooth complexion for a few days.) So who knows where she is on figuring things out.

I'm still undecided on getting ears pierced honestly. I know they are almost a requirement for women, but I just have a thing about piercings and tattoos.

Full time seems like such a dream, jealous and happy for those doing it.

I am really praying I have enough effects in the next year so that when I go to Atlanta I can feel comfortable just going full time in a new city right out of the gate. I hate this switching back and forth, I'm sick and tired of my male clothes.

Oh! And one last thing I'll add... So, I ordered a pink skirt and a cute floral print blouse (I've done all solid colors up until now). FULL FEMME AHEAD! ... Sorry, that pun was atrocious. Accurate, but atrocious.

[Sarah_P]

Sounds like you're on your way girl! I've got my fingers crossed for you! ...not while driving though, that makes it hard to hold the wheel. Or while eating. Or typing. Probably not while I'm asleep either..... wait, what was I talking about? Uhh... Thank you, won't you?

Every time I'm up in the city I'm tempted to get my ears pierced. I've already got several sets of earrings that came as a set with matching necklaces, so I'm eager to be able to use them some day. Hopefully sooner than later.

[Roll]

Sounds like you're on your way girl! I've got my fingers crossed for you! ...not while driving though, that makes it hard to hold the wheel. Or while eating. Or typing. Probably not while I'm asleep either..... wait, what was I talking about? Uhh... Thank you, won't you?

I am listening to the most recent One Piece opening on infinite repeat(just because) and read this while doing so. Now all I can picture is Bartolomeo from One Piece making barriers. Man, that is a weird sentence for anyone who isn't familiar with One Piece, and probably is a pretty confusing sentence even for a lot of people who do know the series and don't remember that tiny detail... But this is my thread, so there will probably be a bunch of random One Piece references because it is the only thing that consistently has brought me pure joy for nearly 20 years.

[Cindy]

That brings back memories.

I had a woman coming in to help with the house cleaning for me when my wife was at home. My wife was an invalid by then and she came in to help change her and help me keep on top of stuff.

She left a message next to the water glass I kept next to my bed.

"I cleaned the lipstick marks off for you. You should be more careful."

Sprung.

[Maddie86]

ooo quick thinking on the chapstick!

reminds me of something that happened to me back in april. I was out watching some bands and I was wearing some foundation and concealer and while I was talking to a friend of mine he started staring at me and then he said "dude, are you wearing makeup?" I was totally caught off guard, I should have been more prepared, but I saved it. "oh, uh yeah, I got really bad razor burn while shaving so I put on some concealer"  He knew I dressed as a woman on the previous halloween, so it didn't seem odd to him that I had it, and I ended up coming out to him a week or two later anyways

[Julia1996]

ooo quick thinking on the chapstick!

reminds me of something that happened to me back in april. I was out watching some bands and I was wearing some foundation and concealer and while I was talking to a friend of mine he started staring at me and then he said "dude, are you wearing makeup?" I was totally caught off guard, I should have been more prepared, but I saved it. "oh, uh yeah, I got really bad razor burn while shaving so I put on some concealer"  He knew I dressed as a woman on the previous halloween, so it didn't seem odd to him that I had it, and I ended up coming out to him a week or two later anyways

It's funny what we think we can get away with before transition. When I was 14 I was at a friends house and she waxed my eyebrows. My eyebrows are snow white like the rest of me and without eyebrow pencil they are actually kind of hard to see. I figured no one would notice they had been waxed. When I got home my dad noticed it immediately and I got busted. I couldn't deny it. Lol

[Toni]

Reading stuff like this just puts a smile on my face     I spent most of my time worrying about hiding the hormones I was taking and care fully hiding them where I thought no one would find them if I was killed in a car accident (I dunno, why would I care then?)  I think I just didn't want my family thinking I was weird post mortem.  Anyway, this generally worked, but occasionally sent me into a panic because, like after being gone on vacation, I couldn't remember where I so effective hid them.  I usually figured it out but I realized I was a hormone junkie.  Today I just wear lip gloss (I like lip plumpers) and mascara (which I really like) whenever I want and recently dyed my hair for the first time, I like it.  Now days my attitude regarding the people around here is just "Oh well, deal with it!".

[Roll]

I've actually been a little surprised what no one noticed. For example... My arm hair is super visible. It's not Robin Williams level thick by any means (I feel bad using that comparison, but he was a hairy dude and I can't think of anyone else off hand), but it is dark on pale skin so what is there is evident. Yet when I shaved, no comments until I pushed it a bit and pointed it out myself.

The part of me that draws amusement from messing with people wants to start really pushing it with my sister. Like walk downstairs with blush on and just tell her to her face she's crazy, I'm not wearing blush I just have rosy cheeks.

[Bari Jo]

Reading stuff like this just puts a smile on my face     I spent most of my time worrying about hiding the hormones

This makes me smile.  I was this way too.  I have a long history of DIY hormones so I was always hiding them so family wouldn't find them.  Mine always did find them, since my hiding places weren't that good.  They never asked about them though.  The dumb stress I had over that.  Now I'm just putting them in my medicine cabinet, and I am barely out to anybody.

Ellie, your arm hair comment, brings back recent memories.  I was busted for having Nair by my sister once.  I was asked about it and just said I want to see what it feels like to have no body hair.  It's weird that family and friends think okay, interesting.  I even go out to dinner with my electroligists and my friends together.  I'm out to my electroligists.  I tell my friends who they are and what they are doing.  They've stated what a great idea to never have to shave again.  How do they think I'm cis?  No idea, but they do!

Bari Jo

[Julia1996]

I've actually been a little surprised what no one noticed. For example... My arm hair is super visible. It's not Robin Williams level thick by any means (I feel bad using that comparison, but he was a hairy dude and I can't think of anyone else off hand), but it is dark on pale skin so what is there is evident. Yet when I shaved, no comments until I pushed it a bit and pointed it out myself.

The part of me that draws amusement from messing with people wants to start really pushing it with my sister. Like walk downstairs with blush on and just tell her to her face she's crazy, I'm not wearing blush I just have rosy cheeks.

It's strange how people will notice anything you do pre transition but then after transition if you do something you WANT them to notice they don't!  Lol.  Although my dad notices EVERYTHING. It's his cop training.  I shaved my legs for the first time when I was 12. The hair on my legs was very soft and white and not noticeable really. But I wanted them to be smooth. My friends at the time had all started shaving their legs so I wanted to shave mine and I did. Like a dummy I thought me dad wouldn't notice. He noticed as soon as I walked past him. He called me over to where he was sitting and ran his hand up my leg. He asked me why I shaved my legs. Instead of just admitting it I thought up a quick lie. I told him it just all fell out. LOL!  He said "so you're telling me all the hair on your legs fell out overnight?" I hadn't realized how totally stupid it sounded until he said it back to me. Lol. What I didn't know then was that even if you just have fuzzy white hair on your legs if you shave them they shine in the light.

[Roll]

Just got back from doing blood work. Good news on that front is I think medicaid is actually covering it (at least as long as they don't know what it's for, they don't seem to ask questions about blood work).

So yeah. Looking people in the eye and handing them a lab order for hormone levels was a new experience. I know there are other reasons to get those labs done, but I couldn't help but think the entire time they knew exactly what they were for. And it didn't bother me at all. The thought of walking into CVS to get the medicine... doesn't bother me at all. I'm bothered by everything, so why is this not bothering me in the slightest? (Though I'll probably do a mail order place for the meds regardless, as they are like 20 a month cheaper than CVS which is the only pharmacy anywhere near me.)