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Started by Roll, November 08, 2017, 09:52:07 AM

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Roll

Even beyond me personally, I thought it was such a great showing of progress in society at large. My sister made a point to her mom (my step mother) at one point about how it was different for her generation(well, technically we're both Millennial on the opposite end of the range, so same generation, but you know what I mean) because of the exposure in the world.

But on that personal level... She is friends with a few FTMs at her school (I still think it's strange there's a good dozen FTMs but no MTFs at her school she is aware of, since the stats usually go in the opposite direction), and has always been so genuine regarding the issue. More than anything, I appreciate the fact she is the type of person who looks at the individual no matter what. If there is an incident at school, she isn't the type to react with the common self righteousness you see in many erstwhile allies no matter what the trans person wants, but makes sure to pay attention to what they want as an individual, and doesn't just use it as an attempt to inflate her own ego like I worry many do. (Which often involves not creating a scene and calling further attention to themselves in that sort of setting.)

Essentially, she isn't just another person on a social justice crusade, but truly cares about the people involved. And to me that matters so much more, as it creates a foundation for the future out of true goodness rather than from the ever changing and unstable social atmosphere of the day.

Also, my step mother likes to setup secret Santa stockings, and I actually have my sister. She's going to be getting a crate of double stuffed Oreos. ;D
~ Ellie
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An Open Letter to anyone suffering from anxiety, particularly those afraid to make your first post or continue posting!

8/30/17 - First Therapy! The road begins in earnest.
10/20/17 - First coming out (to my father)!
12/16/17 - BEGAN HRT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
5/21/18 - FIRST DAY OUT AS ME!!!!!!!!!
6/08/18 - 2,250 Hair Grafts
6/23/18 - FIRST PRIDE!
8/06/18 - 100%, completely out!
9/08/18 - I'M IN LOVE!!!!
2/27/19 - Name Change!

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Julia1996

I'm so happy things are going so well for you. Big hugs.
Julia


Born 1998
Started hrt 2015
SRS done 5/21/2018
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aves

This is so exciting!! I'm super happy that everything is going well for you with HRT and coming out :) I hope the holidays are good to you!


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-aves
Sept 2017- First doctor's appointment; came out socially
Oct 2017- Came out to my extended family
Feb 2018- Endocrinologist appointment; let's hope this also means T!

English/Sociology student
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Roll

So Spiro doesn't waste any time, does it? Unfortunately, I seem to have gotten hit by the early side effect of, *ahem*, excessive flatulence. Here's to hoping that one goes away by the oft cited end of first month time frame. Also, since the night of the first dose I have peed more in 3 2 full days than I have in the past 2 months. But I love it, because it means it's in my system and doing its thing! ;D

Emotionally, I am on a complete high. I just feel so much more peaceful to the point I keep trying to take a nap thinking I'm drowsy. I know that it is psychological, but still!

In celebration, I ordered a new outfit. A pack of super cute socks (my sister always has these socks with crazy patterns and colors I've always been so jealous of), some classic black leggings I sorely need, and a gorgeous purple patterned tunic top. I don't know if the purple will compliment me, but I love the color so I said why not try!
~ Ellie
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I ALWAYS WELCOME PMs!
(I made the s lowercase so it didn't look as much like PMS... ;D)

An Open Letter to anyone suffering from anxiety, particularly those afraid to make your first post or continue posting!

8/30/17 - First Therapy! The road begins in earnest.
10/20/17 - First coming out (to my father)!
12/16/17 - BEGAN HRT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
5/21/18 - FIRST DAY OUT AS ME!!!!!!!!!
6/08/18 - 2,250 Hair Grafts
6/23/18 - FIRST PRIDE!
8/06/18 - 100%, completely out!
9/08/18 - I'M IN LOVE!!!!
2/27/19 - Name Change!

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Julia1996

Quote from: Roll on December 18, 2017, 06:35:14 PM
So Spiro doesn't waste any time, does it? Unfortunately, I seem to have gotten hit by the early side effect of, *ahem*, excessive flatulence. Here's to hoping that one goes away by the oft cited end of first month time frame. Also, since the night of the first dose I have peed more in 3 2 full days than I have in the past 2 months. But I love it, because it means it's in my system and doing its thing! ;D

Emotionally, I am on a complete high. I just feel so much more peaceful to the point I keep trying to take a nap thinking I'm drowsy. I know that it is psychological, but still!

You might as well get used to the fact you're going to pee constantly. Lol.  Gas? Really? I never got gas from spiro thankfully. 
Julia


Born 1998
Started hrt 2015
SRS done 5/21/2018
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Roll

Quote from: Julia1996 on December 18, 2017, 06:38:25 PM
You might as well get used to the fact you're going to pee constantly. Lol.  Gas? Really? I never got gas from spiro thankfully.

Supposedly it's moderately common in the first few weeks, found it on a number of side effects lists but goes away thank god. ;D
~ Ellie
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I ALWAYS WELCOME PMs!
(I made the s lowercase so it didn't look as much like PMS... ;D)

An Open Letter to anyone suffering from anxiety, particularly those afraid to make your first post or continue posting!

8/30/17 - First Therapy! The road begins in earnest.
10/20/17 - First coming out (to my father)!
12/16/17 - BEGAN HRT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
5/21/18 - FIRST DAY OUT AS ME!!!!!!!!!
6/08/18 - 2,250 Hair Grafts
6/23/18 - FIRST PRIDE!
8/06/18 - 100%, completely out!
9/08/18 - I'M IN LOVE!!!!
2/27/19 - Name Change!

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Maddie86

hmm, I don't remember the gas either, but I do know the drowsy tired peaceful feeling! and yeah, get used to the peeing! just make sure you keep drinking water though, sometimes I forget and I'll get lightheaded when I stand up, I hate that feeling! I saw the new star wars movie today and I was shocked that I made it 3 hours without having to get up to pee!
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Roll

I love how one of the only times I get a non guaranteed side effect from a medicine it is this. ;D

I'm worried about that with Star Wars, going to see it with family over next few days with people in town. I am just going to not drink anything beforehand and during. No popcorn for me this time.
~ Ellie
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I ALWAYS WELCOME PMs!
(I made the s lowercase so it didn't look as much like PMS... ;D)

An Open Letter to anyone suffering from anxiety, particularly those afraid to make your first post or continue posting!

8/30/17 - First Therapy! The road begins in earnest.
10/20/17 - First coming out (to my father)!
12/16/17 - BEGAN HRT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
5/21/18 - FIRST DAY OUT AS ME!!!!!!!!!
6/08/18 - 2,250 Hair Grafts
6/23/18 - FIRST PRIDE!
8/06/18 - 100%, completely out!
9/08/18 - I'M IN LOVE!!!!
2/27/19 - Name Change!

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Bari Jo

Quote from: Roll on December 18, 2017, 09:25:20 PM
I love how one of the only times I get a non guaranteed side effect from a medicine it is this. ;D

I'm worried about that with Star Wars, going to see it with family over next few days with people in town. I am just going to not drink anything beforehand and during. No popcorn for me this time.

Nah, just see it a couple times but take bathroom breaks different for each screening.  You won't miss anything this way.

Yay, out sisters are unicorns. We are soooo lucky!

Bari Jo
you know how far the universe extends outward? i think i go inside just as deep.

10/11/18 - out to the whole world.  100% friends and family support.
11/6/17 - came out to sister, best day of my life
9/5/17 - formal diagnosis and stopping DIY in favor if prescribed HRT
6/18/17 - decided to stop fighting the trans beast, back on DIY.
Too many ups and downs, DIY, purges of self inbetween dates.
Age 10 - suppression and denial began
Age 8 - knew I was different
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Julia1996

Quote from: Roll on December 18, 2017, 09:25:20 PM
I love how one of the only times I get a non guaranteed side effect from a medicine it is this. ;D

I'm worried about that with Star Wars, going to see it with family over next few days with people in town. I am just going to not drink anything beforehand and during. No popcorn for me this time.

I hope you have better luck than I do with trying not to drink anything. I've tried not drinking anything a couple of hours before bed. I had to get up to pee anyway. And I was dying of thirst. My mouth felt like it was stuffed with cotton.
Julia


Born 1998
Started hrt 2015
SRS done 5/21/2018
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Sarah_P

For the first couple months I had to get up at least once a night to pee. Then for 2 months after I could generally get through the night without. Now for the last couple weeks I've been having to go again. I probably wasn't drinking enough during those 2 months, though. I'm trying my best to drink lots more water now.
I keep a 16 oz bottle of water next to my bed if I wake up thirsty, and first thing I do when I get up in the morning is to chug the whole thing down (or whatever is left).
--Sarah P

There's a world out there, just waiting
If you only let go what's inside
Live every moment, give it your all, enjoy the ride
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Devlyn

This thread has had some wild moments! I wonder if things would have turned out different if it was Filmed Live in Front of a Studious Audience?  ;)

Hugs, Devlyn
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Roll

Quote from: Devlyn Marie on December 19, 2017, 10:49:14 AM
This thread has had some wild moments! I wonder if things would have turned out different if it was Filmed Live in Front of a Studious Audience?  ;)

Hugs, Devlyn

There will be no studiousness in my audience! All learning should be achieved via osmosis, not that old fashioned study nonsense.
~ Ellie
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I ALWAYS WELCOME PMs!
(I made the s lowercase so it didn't look as much like PMS... ;D)

An Open Letter to anyone suffering from anxiety, particularly those afraid to make your first post or continue posting!

8/30/17 - First Therapy! The road begins in earnest.
10/20/17 - First coming out (to my father)!
12/16/17 - BEGAN HRT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
5/21/18 - FIRST DAY OUT AS ME!!!!!!!!!
6/08/18 - 2,250 Hair Grafts
6/23/18 - FIRST PRIDE!
8/06/18 - 100%, completely out!
9/08/18 - I'M IN LOVE!!!!
2/27/19 - Name Change!

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Charlie Nicki

I'm glad everything is working out for you Roll!


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Allison S

I've been getting a lot of gas lately too and I get up to pee every night. I guess I got a double whammy there


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Roll

So I'm already noticing things, even though it feels impossible since I'm only a few days in! First, the probably entirely psychological combination of feeling both peaceful and excited(and happy!). Second, I'm feeling a little more emotional already. I'm guessing it may be partly the physical, but probably mostly psychological as well. Third, entirely physical, my skin is already a million times drier and clearing up, feeling a lot softer (it was already really soft honestly, people have commented on that my entire life). This may be coincidence and perhaps(probably) would be happening anyway just as a cyclical thing, but still!
~ Ellie
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I ALWAYS WELCOME PMs!
(I made the s lowercase so it didn't look as much like PMS... ;D)

An Open Letter to anyone suffering from anxiety, particularly those afraid to make your first post or continue posting!

8/30/17 - First Therapy! The road begins in earnest.
10/20/17 - First coming out (to my father)!
12/16/17 - BEGAN HRT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
5/21/18 - FIRST DAY OUT AS ME!!!!!!!!!
6/08/18 - 2,250 Hair Grafts
6/23/18 - FIRST PRIDE!
8/06/18 - 100%, completely out!
9/08/18 - I'M IN LOVE!!!!
2/27/19 - Name Change!

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amberwaves

Quote from: Roll on December 20, 2017, 08:02:35 PM
So I'm already noticing things, even though it feels impossible since I'm only a few days in! First, the probably entirely psychological combination of feeling both peaceful and excited(and happy!). Second, I'm feeling a little more emotional already. I'm guessing it may be partly the physical, but probably mostly psychological as well. Third, entirely physical, my skin is already a million times drier and clearing up, feeling a lot softer (it was already really soft honestly, people have commented on that my entire life). This may be coincidence and perhaps(probably) would be happening anyway just as a cyclical thing, but still!
It's a little early for most psychological changes, though as your T drops you'll like be finding better piece of mind.  As far as the skin changes that is totally a thing.  I think it was about 4 days in when I reached under the blanket one night and had to wake my wife up from her almost sleep exclaiming, "oh my God, honey, feel my legs.  They feel like girl legs.". She responded with a, "that's nice dear.  Can't this wait until morning." There's just no pleasing some people...

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Laurie

Quote from: amberwaves on December 20, 2017, 10:08:20 PM
It's a little early for most psychological changes, though as your T drops you'll like be finding better piece of mind.  As far as the skin changes that is totally a thing.  I think it was about 4 days in when I reached under the blanket one night and had to wake my wife up from her almost sleep exclaiming, "oh my God, honey, feel my legs.  They feel like girl legs.". She responded with a, "that's nice dear.  Can't this wait until morning." There's just no pleasing some people...

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  LOL Yes, Amber I can see her  telling you that. I really can.

Hugs,
   Laurie
April 13, 2019 switched to estradiol valerate
December 20, 2018    Referral sent to OHSU Dr Dugi  for vaginoplasty consult
December 10, 2018    Second Letter VA Psychiatric Practical nurse
November 15, 2018    First letter from VA therapist
May 11, 2018 I am Laurie Jeanette Wickwire
May   3, 2018 Submitted name change forms
Aug 26, 2017 another increase in estradiol
Jun  26, 2017 Last day in male attire That's full time I guess
May 20, 2017 doubled estradiol
May 18, 2017 started electrolysis
Dec   4, 2016 Started estradiol and spironolactone



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Roll

Psychological in the it's in my head and based on my reaction to starting, not in the physically changing brain chemistry version. :D I'm just so happy, maybe really happier than I've ever been, and I think just having everything be so positive it has had an effect on being able to access those feelings and whatnot. :)

(Also, while I'm posting I'm going to add the celebration clothes I bought are amazing. So soft and comfortable, I am still in awe of how much more wonderfully soft women's clothes are by design. The tunic is a brand called Come Together I found on Amazon that I plan to buy more from, it is hands down the softest and most comfortable article of clothing I've ever owned and it was only 13 bucks.)
~ Ellie
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I ALWAYS WELCOME PMs!
(I made the s lowercase so it didn't look as much like PMS... ;D)

An Open Letter to anyone suffering from anxiety, particularly those afraid to make your first post or continue posting!

8/30/17 - First Therapy! The road begins in earnest.
10/20/17 - First coming out (to my father)!
12/16/17 - BEGAN HRT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
5/21/18 - FIRST DAY OUT AS ME!!!!!!!!!
6/08/18 - 2,250 Hair Grafts
6/23/18 - FIRST PRIDE!
8/06/18 - 100%, completely out!
9/08/18 - I'M IN LOVE!!!!
2/27/19 - Name Change!

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Julia1996

Wait until your nipples get sore. That happened to me within 2 weeks of starting hrt. I was glad because it meant my boobs were growing but was also very annoying. At one point it hurt to sleep on my side. Then there's when you pick up something large and it presses against your chest. OUCH!
Julia


Born 1998
Started hrt 2015
SRS done 5/21/2018
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