<3 you all.
I really think if not for the hair issue I'd have just said screw it and gone pretty close to full time already, passing aside. Though my new wig is helping, its a lot cooler and less itchy than previous cheap ones.
I'm so anxious for continued changes though. My legs are still too muscular, in a weird way that they've always been that are like... the legs of a long jumper and they don't belong on my body at all. (Large thighs, defined calves, that I really don't understand.) The sooner that goes feminine the better. That and biceps/shoulder muscles. I bought a pair of jean shorts earlier at TJ Maxx and while I love them, my legs just look awkward. :/ Same for the legs showing in dress (though not that bad with hose on). I'm considering grabbing this:
https://www.amazon.com/Urban-CoCo-sleeve-V-neck-Stretchy/dp/B017XIM7T8?th=1&psc=1 to have something a bit more dressy that will hide legs and arms.
But today was a grand day all around. first those morning things with the necklace, and it continued...
Next... I SOLD THE REST OF MY COMICS! I'm finally done with them. I didn't get what I'd hoped, but it was all cash and I'm glad to just wash my hands of it. It was terrible because I was hauling 6 boxes at once, and when I was hauling the second set of 3... THE WHEEL ON MY DOLLY SNAPPED OFF IN THE MALL PARKING LOT! I lucked up though and some guys coming into the mall helped me carry them. What was really funny is that they started to try to carry them all instead of me carrying one, like I was a damsel in distress. I've never ran into that behavior before, and I wasn't remotely presenting female at the time. Not sure if it was a coincidence or if I was putting off some subtle vibe or what.
I then got my second compliment for the day on my shoes.
The girl who is the manager of the store I was selling the comics loved my whole outfit, and particularly liked the pink shoes because she thought it was a great pop of color. (I was in jeans, a black anime t-shirt that has some nice sort of pastels on it in a grid pattern which is honestly pretty gorgeous, and then the pink tennis shoes and hat.)
So I went over to TJ Maxx after with my new found cash and I tried to find some buttonup shirts and other stuff. I got the aforementioned cut off jean shorts, plus three tops and some white jeans. The white jeans were a bust, way too tight around waist, seems like a strange cut. Shorts fit great, but again legs look weird. Maybe wear them over black leggings, I've seen that but might be more of a 20 year old thing? I finally found vertical stripes on one of the tops, but unfortunately it was a bust on size as well. The other two tops are nice, they fit but tightly around shoulders (my sister says she has the same problem with a lot of those types of shirts, which was a nice comfort), I'll hold onto them for use during transplants and hopefully slim down enough they fit a bit better overall sooner than later. If I'm not careful at TJ Maxx I could buy half the store. ;x
I also ordered a purse of my own from zulilly, a beautiful black leather one that I think is a good starter purse.
Lastly, I placed a rather eclectic order on Amazon. #1 I picked up a new laptop and splurged a few hundred extra for it to be a gaming laptop. My current one's monitor is busted and its a weird model that the replacement screens are rare for so its better just to buy a whole new laptop sadly. I'll leave this one hooked up to my old monitor like I have now as sort of a makeshift desktop and set it up as a media server, while using the new one for school and games. #2 item, I grabbed a really cute bralette. It will be my first bralette, and I'm anxious to try it out. Right now I just have one normal bra and then a few sports bras (zip up sports bras = the best thing ever, its really hard to get the ones that are my size on over my shoulders). #3 item and oddly the thing I'm most excited about... I bought a transgender pride flag lapel pin. That I intend to wear at all times. I figure that if even one person sees it and feels less alone in this world, it was 5 bucks well spent.
God, while I'm talking... I can't believe I'm approaching 5 months on HRT. It seems like I started yesterday. Hopefully my labs back this week and I get my dose maxed out (Dr. said she would let me go ahead and max estradiol if everything came back okay). Then soon the precious 6 month mark where every chart says everything kicks into full gear.
Not to mention my transplants on June 8th. I'm just excited for everything, nervous about transplants too but... JUST SO EXCITED!!
Now if only weight loss would cooperate. (Hauling 6 boxes of comics downstairs probably earned me a few calories today at least.)
Edit: OH! Almost forgot. So I have been definitely going around the house dressed more, and had a long conversation in full getup after trying on my new purchases with my dad about, of all things, GCS. Felt a little awkward of a topic at first, but he writes letters for it all the time so he knows the deal. Just sort of talked about the different procedures, how its fascinating from a medical perspective about some of the alternative tissues basically shifting to vaginal mucousal tissue, etc. At this point I am feeling pretty comfortable around my family at least.
